Darn. Why do the canto cows' food next door always smell so good? I thought they are on a strict grass diet!?...

I smell roasted duck again. The whiff caught in the wind outside the window just smells so...............nVm. That's for sticking my head out of the window.

Crapping time

Hmm...where is everyone???!! Busy mugging? So little people online. It's so colddddddd................sian. Blah. I am in the wrong place in front of the comp but really. Help. It's like when you try to study, all the random thoughts appear in my mind. Everything. Haha. Esp holidaying in sg. Helphelphelphelphelphlephelphlephelp. geeeeeeeezzzzzzzzz. Need discipline. And stop feeling like sleeping. Best weather to sleep actually. Bleh. Help. Heeee-llllllpppppp. Exams suck...if you don't already know.

everyone's...mostly got 4 papers. Me? 6. Hah. what in the world.?!#($)@*# 1 hands on. And everyone ends earlier than me. Even the mad pple. ok, the med pple. argh. exams really suck lah. Can't explain more. the word itself injects fear in me. what a powerful term. It describes all the angst and apprehension. my at least.

Have a tendency to eat yet don't eat. How ironic.

My vision is blurred now. All the words. Blah. How crappy am I? Very.

Blogblogblogblogblgoblgoblgo. Someone talk to me.

Ok. I know I am really losing it. Haha. I actually got ice bubble tea for lunch. And it I was freezing cold at the moment I bought it. Hmm. Really lah. I can't comprehend myself and what I am doing. I wished I brought my scarf today! Brrr...stupid weather. I am always wearing the wrong clothes. Freeeezing. weather forecast was supposed to be sunny today!..Always cheat my feelings. =( then I saw a couple of pple in just 3-quarters and a t-shirt and I was totally in awe. I got my thick jacet and a couple of shirts but am still cold. Aiy. Insanity.

Still, I drank an ice drink on a freezing day. I can't believe myself. The conventional (and idiot-proof) way is to get a hot drink. duh. Haha. Just proves what an idiot I am.

Okie, so I am posted to talbot. where the heck is that?! I know it's in heideberg so I still need to take the train. But I think it's remote, compared to repat and the main branch. Argh. And I think I am the only int' student in that group. Sigh. Got to find my way there and be stuck in that hospital for a week. 8am-5pm. 5 days. Very nice. =X

Met an old friend at uni hse today. Haven't seen her since the last eap lesson in trinity. Hehe. That's loooooooong but it's nice to see her again=)

Btw, if you've been to uni hse toilet...erm...it's pink. Like totally completely shocking pink. I was so blinded when I got out of the toilet. Everything is pink. SHOCKING pink. All the way. Except the toilet bowls, that is and this 2 doors that was between the front and the cubicle section. The cubicle is alll shocking pink. you get the point. I stepped in and so overwhelmed by the outlook and stuff. Never ever seen a totally pink toilet before. So that was after abt 6 mths of renovation! Hmm. I wonder what the male toilet is like. All blue? whatever it is, I am sure it isn't as bad and mad as the pink in the female toilet.

Was feeling so super duper exxxxxxxtremely stressed today that I cldn't concentrate studying. Instead, sis suggested going for pancake lunch. Was good. At least, it kept my mind a little occupied for a while. So I ate and I ate and I ate. And and and...I ate chocolate. Argh. I was so crazily stressed out that I did the unexpected. usually that's what happens eh?...Hmm...Like it just waasn't me. I mean maybe today. Bleh. And when I am stressed, the thing is, I don't know what I am doing. ok, I know I ate chocolate so it wasn't that I didn't realise but perhaps more like I feel like doing sth that I don't usually do. Yes, that's it. And also, when I am stressed, I tend to eat alot. Haha. So after lunch which was a chicken crepe and pancake with ICE-CREAM. I wanted MORE. darn. but 1st we went for a little retail therapy and got a bag which I kind of wanted but haven't got the chance to shop for. In one of my fav colours-pink. =) and after that. we went for MORE DESERT. how sinful. more crepe and ICE-CREAM at a different place. Man...what the heck am I doing lah...!!! That's 2 scooops of ice-cream and a few mouthfuls of chocolate shake.

Was raining in the afternoon and the weather was nice. Strangely enough, the weather is supposed to be cold and everyone was wearing thick coats but I don't know why I was feeling rather warm with a not-very-thick jacket. Seriously, what in the world is wrong with me today? Or what in the world is wrong with me overall?...I kept being on the verge of swearing today, mainly due to the essay-which I really cannot be bothered anymore. It's taking its toll on me man. Kept mouthing "fffff..." haha. Aiya. Help me. It's a matter of time before the word comes out and that will be disastrous. =P

Yup, and I am going to have my dinner at 10pm. tsk tsk. Argh.

When I was walking back from school (in a 'lost-self' mode) there were like 4 fire-engines racing to this place in the dir of spencer st and the siren was unmistakably irritatingly piercingly genuinely extremely annoying and it attracted many pedestrians and onlookers (was lunch time) and I was muttering under my breath "SHUT UP." LOL. haha.

Heehee. Cute :)

we did taping today. The kind of thing to prevent further ankle sprain. jen taped my foot. I (felt like) and looked like ba4 zang3. Asked her if she knew what ba zang was, and after much explanation, she said 'glutinous rice'. Hmm. I never thought of ba zang as glutinous rice before. It just sounds so nice. Not the singaporean-malay style=X. Anyway, I miss having to talk to someone who seriously know the typical singaporean-speaking manner. even j's going ozz but it's so weird. esp when he 'yeahs' and stuff. whatever. losing his root over here. well. the taping was sth new. Never ever touched such tape in my life b4 and here they are (jen) doing it ever so often. Got like 8 tapes altogether. That's the purpose I guess, to restrict mvt. So wanna go home.

Weather's mad today too. Hot. Cold. More of hot.

In the distance, I see lights of a ship. Recalled the time at EC beach... :O ...

There a ball yesterday. Well. I didn't go. Didn't really like the theme and stuff. Actually I am not sure why I didn't go either=P Nvm.

Argh. I miss my brudder. Somedays, pple just pop up in your minds and you realise that you miss that so badly. Perhaps that's taking things for granted. Too many things. Reading his blog makes me miss him even more. Yet at home when he was still doing his ns, I don't know what I was doing lah. Maybe it's just this thing abt knowing you are in 2 complete different countries. I don't know. Here I am, trying do the _____ essay. More like doing last minute work. Haiz. How??!!!...Sometimes I really wished I did spend my time more wisely. Not like spending a day off playing and stuff. Haiya don't know lah. Like feeling sick and COLD. Sick that the exams are coming and the palpitations and stuff. Sick that pple cannot understand. bye

what a cold autumn night. Brrrrrr........

1 more wk =)

btw the jumper that my sch is selling reminds me of what the innates wear behind the wiring barbs in changi. $56 to look like a prisoner. No thanks.

I am starting develop a really horrendous posture of slouching, to the extent that my lumbar spine hurts. That's bad.

It's depressing that survivor is over=( Tuesdays will never be the same again. However, it's good to know that he won=)

I've got this coursemate who is always always snacking. Living on K-bars and stuff. Yet she is as skinny as a rake. Some pple's just got high metabolism rates.

A long gruelling arduous day awaits me tomorrow=(

Being stumbling across ozies who are learning mandarin assiduously. And I mean like hard-core. Sounded like mandarin to me and upon peering over. Indeed it was. Hmm. Inspires me to take up a new language too. But nah. No time for that. Jap sounds elegantly profane but it's one of my choices. haha. French another. Can learn that anytime but indolent me can't seem to ever get pass the 1st lesson=P Will learn, will learn.

I realised that I don't really like to talk=P Took me a while to realise that. Anyway, of late I just fall into lapses of silence more frequently. Partly because I am lazy to speak and also because I don't know what to touch on. Frankly speaking, there is everything under the sun to discuss. Maybe that's why I need pple who can talk and it just kills me having someone who is super duper quiet ard me. Once upon a not-too-long time ago, I used to be able open up qte easily to 'silencers', talk abt almost anything and everything but I guess right now, perhaps it is associated with a coming of age thing. Like sometimes you just feel as if whatever is going to come out of your mouth is crap and pretty much trash, so you shld jolly well shut your gap kind of thing. =P With me saying that, it is a different story with others. If I happen to be ard someone who talks alot or maybe not alot but a considerable amount abt anything, haha I will be there to listen=) Just don't force me to speak when I really don't feel like. Hehe, the reason being I probably am too lazy to process words. =X
Okok, it is late and I realised that I am getting a little crappy here too. So...Sweet dreams=)

...and the topic above...which brings me to jb who apparently has been mia due to exams. where?...

I just read someone's blog. Some who I will always consider a friend. But if only things were that easy. On the surface, fact is we don't even talk anymore. However, deep down, I have always been thinking of making the 1st move- something that I usually do in such circumstances. It's not easy and for now I just know that I can't do it. It just feels demoralising everytime I try to talk to him. It's as he is not trying at all. Perhaps he is but I really don't know. I guess I will never know too. One thing, I will always look forward to the day when I can talk to him on a personal level again. I think he is clueless that I read his blog so often and I don't intend to make it known to him as well. Don't see the purpose of doing so. Today, I read something touching. He actually said that he regretted it. I don't know what he regrets but at least I know that my efforts in the past didn't go wasted. I so long for one day when I can talk to him again. Don't feel the awkardness that I always felt whenever I went out with him. I did give up trying to befriend him over and over again and I was tired and afraid of him. Whatever it is, I really wish one day we can talk again. It just doesn't feel nice to drift apart from someone who you were once so close with...

Only time will tell for now.

On family love

hehe. Just saw my sis in this interview that my other sis downloaded over the web. haha she looked qte funny=P. It was a really short interview though that airred on CNA at home last mth. Then suddenly it caught me thinking abt my sister and my family. Like I think it is really qte interesting to have 3 girls in the family. okie maybe not for you who is reading this. haha but the main thing to note is that I really really love my family ALOT. Like I think nothing can ever beat that. The unusual thing to this is that perhaps compared to other families we are not that close-knitted like we don't sit at a table and eat all our meals together but rather in front for the telly and stuff. Nonetheless, these recent years I have come to realise that I have the greatest parents in the world (to me at least=P). I shan't go into the details because maybe it's a bit mushy to list out. However, seriously the way they elicit parental love esp from my dad is more through actions. Like I don't think he ever said "I love you" before to any of us kids but via the things he does, the love is really priceless. Like how he will always try his best to give us the best even though he is somewhat incapable of doing so. TRYING to give the best when you are struggling-maybe that's the greatest thing. I love my mummy and daddy soooooo much!=)

Then I wanted to talk abt my sis. Haha. My crazy insanely fruity sister. hehe. I remembered how tom-boy she was when I was just a kid. And she wld wrestle, yes wrestle me, some helpless pathetic 9 year-old on her bed. Something she got from her judo days. haha. more like dunking me over her shoulder and on the bed. Those were the times. I used to look up to her when I was a kid because I guess I was qte similar to her when I was young. Like qte into sports and stuff and punching and somehow I had this uncanny resemblance to her when she was young too. So identical that maybe it was a little freaky. Cldn't really tell who it was in the picture except through the COLOUR of the photo. Hahaa. The time generation and stuff- her pics were always yellower. hahaaa....=p Up till today, I am glad that I can wear some of her social clothes. haha. Like if she doesn't want her nice new clothes anymore she can just give it to me or my sis. That's a sisterly thingy I guess. But usu it's more of trying out only for fun because of the different fashion styles and stuff. hehe. Sometimes I miss those family vacations that I had when I was qte young. Don't get that nowadays. Maybe that's just the price that comes with independence. Sometimes I wish that we can still have them. Take pics of just the 3 of us. And with our parents too. Someday. Someday=) when I graduate maybe=P

Had a strang dream last night. It was one of those which I usually dream abt every sat night. Hehe. I dreamt that I was crossing the road with a friend and walking down orchard road to orchard station. haha. Was crossing the road at Borders Bkshop. Boy, do I miss doing that!=)

2nd dream was abt 3 girls and a guy. Well, I friends, I don't really know who the other 2 girls were but the guy seems to be sean from college. haha. Weird, I don't even talk to him. Anyway, the 4 of us seemed to be a really close bunch of friends and I remember sitting in the seat beside the driver's seat in a big lorry while sean and this other girl sat in the passenger seat. It was very very strange indeed. The driver drove through roads which had trees lining the pathway and such. Bonkus eh. And the 4 of us huddled up and tooks many neoprints. Anyway, it was one of those sweet dreams which you wish you didn't have to wake up from. But it was 1120. I had to lug myself out of bed...

the cider hse rules rules!.....=P

The cider house rules is really really really good. It's like the next best thing from forrest gump, one of my favourite shows. Hmm actually I think TCHR can live up to FG and I think it can be one of my fav shows too. haha. Usually it's this kind of shows that make it to some oscar award win. The overpowering theme of love and with it's really deep kind of meaning and stuff. That's how it tugs at the viewer's heart strings. Boy, haven't watched something so good in a long time. you shld watch it too. hehe. At one point of time I teared because this boy, fuzzy died of some respiratory disease. The movie saw many pple dying as well. I guess one of the themes was abt living life to the fullest. It has a sweet melancholic tune just like FG...oh I think paul rudd is cute. hehe he starred in 'clueless' which was aired last wk.

Hmm.....what an unproductive day!...hmph!...

yay!...hope to seeeee yaaaaa soooooooon!=)

Oh managed to get a couple of pics from j who took pics of the signs in the 'ghost-rider' filming at my school. Haha.

Argh. I know I really shouldn't be blogging now!!! but I am STREEEESSSSSSSSSED!(*&#()(#&)(*@)&#(*&!!!!!!!!!!!!.......................=( I know you are stressed too-those busy mugging and stuff.
Man...I am supposed to be doing my essay now and it is really wringing my brain juice dry. I actually spent 1hr on the introduction which is so bad. And I still got lots lots more to go. boooo hooooo hooooo........I can't wait for the hols when I will have company!=) anyway, back to whining----1500 word essay. Due in abt a couple of wks time. Then exams. Then wah piang eh I wanna puke!...Ahhhhhhhhh..........help!!!!!!!............................

Whine whine whine whine whine whine whine.........I wanna crack.

I just realised that yest marked the 3rd mth that I am here. Geez...Is that fast?...Don't know. Then I just realised it's sat again. I just remembered watched some show on tv with my sis last sat then it's on again. So it's sat again. Ok I am blabbering trash but seriously, I am STRESSED!...*Pulls hair on head*.

I don't believe this but I am actually thinking of food now. Had some packet mee for lunch. Actually it was pretty good. haha. With egg and some leftover food like fish. oh but the fish was a bit sour so I threw some away. STREEEEEEESSSSSSSSED!

Beneath that sign it actually says "school of physiotherapy". LOL.  

This is the entrance. If you look closer, you can actually see a sign that says "sheriff dept" or sth like that... 

What an interesting day. Yah, just met te at the lobby of my apartment. My sec 3/4 classmate. She was really shocked to see me. then she asked "eh?????.....How come you're not shocked to see me?......" wait a min...am I supposed to be shocked? haha well actually mel already told me that she was here. That explains. And I recalled when mel told me that she was qte disgusted. erm...me?...well a little. =P and I had to meet her at my apartment. Hmm. Hmm. Anyway, at least she's not staying here. Well that's what she said. The funny was that when I was at QV after shopping for groceries, I went on the escalator and saw this girl who I thought looked like te. Because mel said she looked better than since sec4 so I thought, hmm that girl at QV looks like her but she looks qte good and I was thinking...it's as if te underwent plastic surgery! but I didn't rule out any possibility that it was her. Anyway, I didn't expect to see her at my apartment!!!!!!!!!.......The lift opened and out she came I was a little dumbfounded actually but oh well. I guess I had to meet someday. melb is afterall pretty small. = Thing is, the girl I saw at QV wasn't actually her. Haha. te looks the SAME as in sec4. Yup. Very weird huh. How 10min ago, I THOUGHT I saw her but it wasn't her (turned out to be 2 different pple) and 10 min later, I find the real te coming out from my apartment block. HOW FREAKY IS THAT!........
Oh man. oh and she was wearing a t-shirt and a really skimpy pair of shorts when I am freezing in like 3 layers of long-sleeved jumpers. er......she sure can hold her cold well. hehe...oh and she hugged me too which I thought was qte weird since I was never that close to her in sec sch. okie I shan't be so mean lah, on a lighter note, frankly I think it's qte nice to see fellow singaporeans here!=) let alone my high school classmate.

couple of day ago I saw al on the street in the city too. she was Miss Ny back in sec3. hehe Looks the same. She didn't see me though. =P

Haiz, the library closed early today and I didn't realise. Had this whole stack of book that I have yet to go through. And it was painstaking gathering them. Then they said the library was closing in 10 min. so crappy. Thankfully, I cld put them on reserve. It's a little cumbersome though because it simply meant that I had to return another day...=P

Anyhow, glad I had a good catching up with vict today. let's see...1 1/2 yrs? That's pretty long. Considering that we are both from the same country and are in the same country now. Hehe. I had fun though. Hope to see you soon!=) oh then be careful of the sleeping pills!=) hehe...

Tired............................and still qte shocked though it wasn't written on my face at the point of time when the lift door opened.

OH I gettit. Haha. It's friday the 13th!!!....haha but really...it's such a coincidence......*_<

Something exciting happened at school today!...Pple-in-charge sent us emails a couple of days ago informing us that the sch maybe condoned-off for some construction thingy going on today but little did I realise that..........hehe they were actually filming! There was a group of crew who had been patrolling the area outside my school for the entire day and I realised that the 'sch of physio' sign had been covered over with a similar sized board with the words the name of a police station. Haha. Okie, so apparently my school became a police station in the film. Haha. Thought it was qte hilarious. =P then as I was on my way back, I saw that the void area directly beside my sch blding was opened (for once) and there were a few sophisticated machinery inside. I didn't know that all these were for a cause-for the filming of 'ghost-rider'. hehe. The nicholas cage film. I went for class in the afternoon (straw-barry was sick today so my prac tutor took over which wasn't very nice since that meant that we had to talk more than usual). Anyway, that was WHEN I realised that they were filming for 'ghost-rider' as classmates were talking about it. Unfortunately, after a few neck raises on my way back, I didn't see nicholas cage. Haha. =P

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am I in control of things that I am supposed to be in control of?...

181 days and counting...

the person who thinks/believes that he or she is great or perfect (or greater and better than others) is usually the last person who is great or perfect...

truth is, no one enjoys being pushed around...

start realisation: i am weaker than what i thought...

previous song: shakira underneath your clothes. brings me back to sec3 memories...
song: truly deeply madly...

last night, another night of insomnia. I mulled abt what I wld write in a last letter. it felt so real. i cld picture the melancholy of my family. my mum. i teared myself to bed...

free me...

why?...

Dear Lord, please let me see the light soon and never regret things I have done and things that I cannot change. Please give me the strength and courage to face everyday's challenges, emotional and physical. I pray that you will always do what's best for me and knowing that you have always planned the best for me, I can feel comfort in what I am doing and not look back...Thank you Lord Jesus. Amen.

My sis's room feels like a christian bookshop. I am serious! Everytime I enter, I can't help but be so spiritually inspired-the hymms and the collection of christian books. I saw the purpose driven life book on her table and she encouraged me to read it. I told her that it was a really popular book since my friends read them before. Inevitably I read through 2 chapters. It felt good. I don't know why but everytime I get involved spiritually, I feel like crying. nvm the reason. Anyway, it was good book I must say. The 1st chapt was powerful enough to make me realise the purpose of life. I think I shldn't question my existence anymore...=)

I feel like I really shld be studying but haiz...you know lah. Hmm...I am such a procrastinator. Just got off the phone with my mum (an hr ago) and there they are, abt to enjoy dinner. Hmm...miss home eh..=P

It's a cold night.

=)

whatever will be, will be

I think God made me see the light. Made me realise who I can trust, who I can't. Hehe coming to think of it, I think I don't really care what happens to her life. Everyone is given a right to decide what he/she wants to do, more or less.

After taking photocopies of documents, Ah Beng always compares it with the original for spelling mistakes.--haha needed a little joke to crack me up a little
=P

the clock on the clock tower opp my apartment has stopped at 1.17.

I like this song: whatever will be, will be.

Halleluya. Rubbish. I think I am becoming more and more panaroid. I think I know what is happening. So evasive. Him too. Wah piang eh. Always doing this to me. The same person. the sticky one. Hai whatever lah. So rubbishy. They can go get married and get out of my sight lah. =P

Haha. Venting anger. I shld take things like a pinch of salt eh. Just like James from EFG2. Yah, and then get eliminated. whateverrrrrrr.........Just wanna kick a**es. =X It's the same everywhere eh?...

I practically stayed in and rotted today. Watched tv, played comp, ate ALOT ALOT. Crap. and it's still freeeeeeezing. oh well. Stuffed my face with so much rice. =( and I think I've been eating since I awoke...And it's going to dinnertime soon. haha. Oh no.

Brrrrrrrr.........
The weather is so cold I feel like sleeeeeeping again. So piggified. AhHHhHHhhhh...

Prawn meeeee prawn meeeee prawn meeeeeee.........
Cravings....=P

Song on radio: Angels in the morning

Is today the 6th? I think so. That means 6 mths more? Or rather 6 mths less=)

Had a strange dream last night. Dreamt of my lots of pple. My pri sch best friends and I looking through some school reflections memoir together. haha. Dreamt of adam again. Haha!...hmm dreamt of my mum and dad. Dreamt of zoetay. I know I know. I just had a haphazard dream.

On a lighter note, yesterday I had a hearty chat with my cousin online. It's really be a while. And I realised that she's been with her bf for nearly 2 1/2 yrs now. Wow. And her bf is of a darker race. Not that I mind but I am qte amazed since her dad is very very strict to the kids so how did he endure the fact that a catholic has fallen for a muslim? I have no idea. Does he even know?...but whatever it is 2 1/2 yrs. Still an accomplishment. Maybe it's also because they are in the same sch and same cca and stuff...

Well...It's really cold today. =P Freezing in. But it's nice to have a schooless day=P

Cold barley desert. Yum yum. =)

A FRIEND should be radical.
He should hug when you are unhuggable, love when you are unlovable, and bear when you are unbearable.
A friend should be fanatical.

He should cheer when the whole world boos,
Dance when you get good news and cry when you cry too.
But most of all, a friend should be mathematical.
He should multiply the joy,
Divide the sorrow,
Subtract the past,
and add it to tomorrow.
Calculate the need deep in your heart,
And always be bigger than the sum to all of these parts.
- written by someone-

Nice.=)

So be it. So be it.

Well! Today for prac, we tampered with stethoscopes! It was qte cool I think- I know I am such a goony but please forgive me, the last time I played with one was when I was er......3? I don't know. hehe. It was qte fun, considering that it was a REAL stethoscope compared to the one I had when I was 3. Hehe. It wasn't even mine. =P Gonna get 1 next yr...hmm we have to.

Gosh. 2 hrs of freaking straw-barry tutorial. Oh man. Oh man. Nvm. Tmr is another rest day=) and there's raymond on tonight...I need to start on my essay. How to start. That's the huge problem. I seriously have zilch idea what to write. The research and all. Crap.

I was really shocked during lect today. The lecturer was flabbergasted that pple were talking during his lect so he warned that anyone who spoke wld be asked to leave the LT- without warning. And...liz was called to leave. She was sitting in the 1st row and probably asking her friend sth and the lecturer commanded her to leave. yup, she was the meanie who made me feel so horrible when I first started out in the course. I wasn't gloating, just that she appeared qte smart and hardwking to me so I was a little appalled that she was made to leave. Oh well, she looked qte pissed at the lecturer. Nvm.

The doky lecturer actually reminded me of banana brain aka wong-my hist tcher. Kept repeating the same thing over and over again. I want to eatttttt.............

I am happy for you girl=)

Zanked. Zonked. Zaned.

Gawd. just sat through 3 hrs of gruelling lectures. How did I do that? Woaw it was draining. 3 different lectures. I still can't believe it. Sat there for 3 hrs! Man...what was going on man?

Lunch time. I NEED to find food. All alone. Blah. I think I am going to roam the streets again. hahaa...I need a break!!!...3 hrs! I still can't believe it. Coming to terms with it. Hehe. Eyes shutting down soon. Haven't had that still sec4 banana wong's lect/tut.

Without a walkman, my walk to uni every morn is a silent one. It made it inclined to think more and also talk more to myself. Sounds kinda eccentric but oh well, things just float in and outta my mind. Rumble rumble rumbling in my head. Oh and that's my stomach now. Haha.

So I broke another plate again today. That's 2 in less than 3 mths. I guess I am just not cut out to be a washer-lady.

Gawd. My brother is soooo cute and funny!=P
http://www.xanga.com/item.aspx?user=furryfren
actually recorded his own voice!=) haha

I love my mummy!=)

Don't mind me. A bit vulgar today. Looked at some test qns and there goes the word "sh*t".

Why didn't I sit at the corner!!!!!......=( Initially, I refused to sit in the 1st row when they told us to move because the lecture theatre was designed in such a that it curved inwards at the sides. Ok, so all LTs are like that. Whatever. I refused to because the 'view' was so good. Crap. I really shld have sat there. It was left-handed table. I cldn't possibly 'enjoy the b-la-r-dy' view you know. And who knows, I may have concentrated better for the test. Argh. So regretted it. Why man why? Imagine me sticking my index finger, pinkie and thumb out and pointing twds the floor in an Afro style. Man........

I sure hope it doesn't affect the outcome. Use your BRAINS girl!.....

So...he is always trying to avoid me. Why? I have no idea. Don't want to know either. Well I guess it ain't a bad thing. Saves me from trying to avoid him. Haha. It's true. It's good to get used to stuff. Used to things that you cannot control like pple treating you bad and stuff. =) I am truly meant that. Go ahead, continue avoiding me. =)

I don't understand why they have to make us go (walk) to a place which is opp the trinity sci labs just to take a 15 min test. It's soo far. But oh well, weather's good, a little chilly though but good. I don't mind the walk=)

Oh my way back, I was being my egoccentric self again. Realised pple were staring at me. You know how you walk past pple and pple gaze at you for longer than they shld? Yup. I thought was it because I looked like crap? Maybe my hair was in a mess. Maybe my pants were undone. Maybe I looked ugly. Just Maybe. We can't rule out any speculations right?...Oh well. Geez.

It's May day. I wish it was Pay day. Haha.

I am hungry again. Can you imagine. I just ate brekky 2 hrs ago. Got a big tummy.

This entry is NOT dirty.

I really have to blog. It's driving me nuts.

Here goes:
I admire independent pple. Pple who have a mind of their own. Not pple who "you jump, I jump". It's sickeningly crazy. Suddenly recalled the time when she realised we were in the same tut. "Eh...we must sit together okay?" I wasn't pissed then. But now, after getting my ass next to hers for 10 wks-more than 20 times altogether, I really think it's the apex. Not like if you sit next to me you'll be any smarter or prettier or whatever. You know, it's fine if she shut her gap but throughout these freaking >20 times she has to bring up stupid things in the middle of a lecture like "Oh (giggle giggle giggle)...my hand hit my Breast!...stupid me!" LIKE WHATEVER!!!!!!! Who cares who hits whatever breasts!!!!....

you get what I mean.

I total hate it when she has to nag and nag and nag during tuts.

You HAVE A BRAIN. USE IT. Stop trying to be a bubble gum or some sort and literally STICK on anything and anyone. Just because she is not going for the extra session doesn't mean that you CANNOT go or something. Just go by yourself!! Oh man.

Ok. Enough ranting for now...

Last night I saw the tv guide-a jap movie at 10. Happily turned the tv on. Guess what, they were abt to have sAx. The girl was biting the guy's chest and then suddenly she lifted her blouse up only to expose to NO lingerie underneath it. And the show wasn't sensored. Yes, you get the drift. 1s later they were having sAx. Standing up. Thankfully it wasn't captured. I cldn't tahan anymore, had to change the freaking channel. (we rarely get asian shows here...so I watched it!...if that's what you are thinking) I was so traumatised. Decided to watch news. 2 mins later, decided to check out what else was happening in the jap show. The way they wrote a synopsis in the papers seem as though the movie had a good theme. Switched the channel and I really regretted it. They were having oral sAx. And they show it. His head was in her.....nvm. Like PLEAASSSSEEEEEEE!!!!!!!.....

I decided to turn off the tv and sleep, praying hard that I won't dream abt it (because you know how the last thing you see before you sleep tend to appear in your non-rem sleep (NREM). Just like how I dreamt of aaron (K) the day before. hahaaaaa....