ballade pour adeline: March 2006

today is qte a good day...i think=) well at least it cld have been uglier which i really resist to think abt.

Today she found out from my friend that i have a test today and on seeing that i kept hiding my file everytime she came to my desk. And after trying to dig hard abt the nature of my exam- whether it was graded or not, how much to study, whether i've studied them before in the past...blah. Scheming eh. Tsk. hmm and i told a white lie today. She GUESSED it. it was a mock exam therefore it wasn't graded but i told her it was counted, hoping that maybe she'd excuse me from work and let me study in peace. She even skimmed thru my file of lecture notes and concluded that yes, i've studied them in high sch before, which i hurriedly amended my statement that "It's DIFFERENT. It's more" she said "in depth." me: "YAH." hahaR. It wasn't easy convincing her man...How persistent.

And so...she granted me the afternoon off. As in really took away the pile on my table and passed it on to another girl who was busy enough. =P ahh... Anw...i shall forgive her a little today because she was nice enough. She said "ok...i'll close one this time...U study...Next time do properly...BLAH BLAH BLAH". heheee...

So tired. the mock exam was qte disastrous. So much to study. The whole afternoon including my lunch time was devoted to this thingy and yet i still cldn't do. Bleah.

in the bus on my way back...this kid kept screaming like mad. For once, i wasn't pissed with such kids. In fact, i was thinking that kids are so cute (I must be mad) that they don't careless for pple in the world. b*tches, b*stards and crappy people. Yet when they grow up, they (WE) become one of the freaking morons in the world that so scares even myself. the way we treat pple and get treated just makes me feel like wldn't it be nice if we all didn't have to grow up and destroy our innocence and naive nature of candies, neverlands and wonder-lands?...

What a joke. My dad wants to debate with me abt how diabetes comes abt. I said it's inborn--even before i cld explain the innate lack of insulin, he said "No lah...you eat too much sweet things, drink coffee at night...blah blah blah...also can get diabetes." ARGH. Whatever k. this is from someone who i am sure has never taken biology before. Blah. I just walked off, too flabbergasted to even argue my point across=P (because i am not sure myself...wahhahaR) but anw, my tutor used to tell me it's NOT because of ingesting too much sweeeeet things...hmm

Ooo met up with pee today!=) Really glad that i did. but really sorry that it was kinda rushy and stuff. I had planned to eat at either country mana or kenny rogers but turned out that when the stupid training ended, it was already 1.15pm and the poor friend had to had 20min for me=( So we settled for food-court food instead since i had to be back by 2pm. bleah. what an uncomprising lunch hour. I was trying to study the whole afternoon amidst the heaps of files to cover up my 'illegal' deeds. Did a bit of reading but how much went into my cerebrum at all remains a mystery.

i saw a black dress i fancied from m)phosis. Kinda liked it. cld be for formal or informal. Waiting for payday.......=p today, i realised that one of the temp staff on probabtion for 2mths was gone. They didn't even give her a week's notice or sth...until when she asked the person-in-charge on friday (when her 2mths was over) if they were going to convert her to permanent. Apparently no. And without warning as well. That sucks.

A conversation on a bus that totally pissed me off:

B*tch number 1: "youngsters nowadays...Haiz...see that STUDENT over there(then she looked behind), stand there with the big bag and block everyone...like a piece of pole. Don't say like move in for pple to walk..."
B*tch number 2: "yah lor...so self-centred. Haiyoh...youngsters uh...always talk so loudly in the bus. So inconsiderate..." *whatever whatever whatever crap coming out of their mouths*

I was sitting just beside b*tch 2 and I just kept rolling my eyes. then she cited an example on 2 Ca______ high students who were shouting to each other when they were just within a shlder's length of each other. I really wonder what is it abt students that irate them so much... (is it because they can't be one of them? I don't know...)
You mean STUDENTS their time (erm...a couple of centuries ago?) don't talk loud too? They don't play ard in buses...?! (OH I FORGOT...BUSES DIDN'T EVEN EXIST DURING THEIR TIME) what's with the world man? what's with them man? what's with me man? haiz...work stress. sorry. forgive me. hAHaR.

Photos!=)

my fav. piece of PeE~ =)

Blah.Me. hahaR.

funny-faced peewee.

*evil*

rudolf. My friend broke my nose accidentally when she hit my nose bridge with her elbow with full force. OUCH.

do you hear the pple sing?
singing the song of angry men
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

*repeat*

-les miserable

headache headache headache. Argh=(

it's a bird! it's a plane! it's ME. i am a kite.
oh sh*t. i am losing it.

i think i am going to......have to.........do sth. tsk.

had a day off yest=) needed time to study. and despite the day, i still have ALOT to catch up. it's amazing how much info overload i am. anw, had a study session this afternoon aft class. somehow it was as effective as i'd expect it to be. the lib was closing early and 1 gal had to go off early to meet her friends in chinatown. so when the lib was abt to close, we walked over to Hans to mug. my first time there. the food's not bad=) shared sandwich with my friend. Then aft the girl left, the both of us went down to town-orc. it felt good. Invigorating and stuff, esp after having to study. but still, it cld have been better because it wasn't that fruitful a day academically. saw this skirt that i had fancied abt a couple of weeks ago but didn't buy. tried on again; the desire to get it still there. But i didn't. sigh. maybe i shld right. a white skirt to go with my tops=)

today, i took 3 buses and a taxi to cls. =P hehe coz this bus was really slow and i missed my 2nd direct bus to cls so i took another down to macRitchie and when the bus still didn't come and i decided that if i took a cab, i wld be kinda early, so i hopped onto a another bus that came along, aware that i'd still have to change bus. Anw, i missed my stop where i was supposed to get off and before the bus was turning. argh. so i crossed the overhead bridge and saw the bus i was supposed to take drive off. Man...it was another 5 min before it struck me that if i don't take a cab, i WLD BE LATE. so there you go. my adventure.

the 1st bus was horrible. It was crawling like a slow loris at 20km/h as i see the cars zoom by like nobody's biz. And my 2nd direct bus was in front of it yet it seemed as though i was never going to catch it. sigh. then i looked at the sunshade of that bus driver and it read "Christ First". And i thought to myself. But God, you didn't tell the bus driver to drive SO slowly, did you?...

Then the 3rd bus was the worst. 1/2 of un-airconed bus. How sinful!!!!!...I was seriously sweating like a pig. And it didn't help that every single bus that went past me was air-conned. only this freaking i am in, wasn't. ouch. I am Ice=)

Gonna meet pee and mon!=) hopefully. A bit of a rush but it's nice to catch up once in a while with old friends. hmm i realised that i don't have cls on fri. Ouch again. there goes the movie. Shld have booked. So blur. Anw, they're screening ice age2. Some crappy kiddy movie. Detest animated films so maybe i just shldn't watch it, yah? then again, i haven't watched movies in a while=( i really shld have checked for clses earlier.

ooo might be going to the ZOO next sunday coz my coursemate who works in AVA's got free zoo tix. but haven't confirm yet coz the other girl hasn't confirm. hehe...been ages since i last went there. hmm since sec1? i can't even rem. Anw, the former has taught me abt self-control today. As you dear readers know, i haven't been able to cope with my eating habits that has gone out of hand lately. and it's really been a pain in the ass. so i really hope this works. =P As we walked thru taka basement, i can't help but be allured by the sumptious variety of foods but really thank God that i didn't assuage my cravings. The honeyed waffle and banana split. Hmm. I ought to learn. fast. but before i learn it the hard way...

oh i dreamt of my friend last night. just dreamt that we were walking at j8 mrt station then we boarded an open-air double decker bus. Almost kind of enjoying the white wine. yah, on a double-decker bus. I think it was kinda drizzling and stuff. Then i think i woke up. Strange dream. Probably means that it's time for a holiday=P Hai, why isn't anyone online?=(

Blah. i think i am becoming more and more anti-social. just like to stay in and bum ard. i don't like to be treated 2nd priority. Who likes to be treated like a spare tyre?

And when i fall in love, i will fall head over heels for the one...nuff said.

the butch, the smoker and the monk

that day in the ladies in sch, i looked up and was flabbergasted to look up from the basin and find a man standing right beside me in the toilet. he/she was my height but slightly more petite in stature than me. Struck me that it was a butch. Scary stuff. Then he/she eyed me as though I was the one in the wrong toilet and as though I was the one with the sex change. It felt really uncomfortable that i was really wondering if i had really stepped into the gents instead. Don't worry, I am sure I didn't.

my friend thinks i smoke, without me even having to tell her that i do (I DON'T) and she wldn't believe me when i told her i don't. Man, do i look like a smoker? i tried hard to convince her that i DON'T but all she said was..."yeah right" then I asked her why. And she said "ure lips are black and ure gums are black!" ??!?!!! Erm.......ok actually i smoke. JUST KIDDING! my parents will kill me lah. Besides, i detest smokers. Anyway, my lips were black because the lect room was cold and that explains. As for my gums.....ERM...well....you see....ERM...haiYA, I have unhealthy gums, alright?=P haha...Beats me why i appear to have black gums too. Maybe it was the lighting. But crap. Seriously. Me=a smoker? Are you out of your puny little mind?!

every morning (well almost) i wld meet this monk at the bus-stop and each time i realised that he doesn't look at me. Or anyone. Including guys. Poor thing=X Can't even glance when a chio bu sashays across. (speaking of which...it's horrible when ladies sashay across the mall every morning. ARGH...can you pls bloody walk faster!...Just for your info, You're blocking the entire path.) Anw, back to the monk: When when he boards the bus (the same bus as me...to the interchange, he stands at a corner like an autistic kid, oblivious to whatever was going on in the almost filled bus. And today, he was carrying a plastic bag full of journals and papers. Curiosity got the better of me and I edged near to look because I was kapo. I was wondering what in the world monks read. Then the words read "Living every moment of life with AWARENESS". WoaW. Cheeem.

So jaded with work. So far behind my notes. And so sick of seeing sian pple at work everyday. Complaints aside. Thank you.

don't you just wish that there were more hours in a day? then I cld get another job and get another income. then i can study more and sleep more. then i play more too...

today my hands were molested in the mrt!!!...this lady in front of me kept jostling in the crowded mrt. but not with her hands. she molested me with her ASS. it was rather empty in front of her yet she insisted on backing so much so that her hair was within 15cm of my face and how i wished she'd used a more fragant shampoo. yup, so she kept pushing and her bum was literally scraping across my hands which i was simply holding my handbag. eew. i felt molested with a gargantum ass. then i felt so conscious. maybe i had such a figure too. a lop-sided body with a mammoth butt and an almost non-existant front. argh. upon these thoughts, i was so self-conscious that my banished my evil thoughts instantanously.

today she treated us to lunch at a ramen place below our workplace. the food was not bad although i had wanted to order a teriyaki salmon ramen which i dared not because of the price and that i wasn't the one paying. so much for getting a treat. you just feel bad abt having to choose something more then the usual. anyway, it wasn't very filling so i saw myself munching away at choc waffles from the pantry. Yum Yum. the whole afternoon. blah. THAT was to be my dinner anyway.

speaking of which, my friend is so sweet=) she knows that i dun usually have dinner because i have to rush to class, today she bought me a muffin for dinner=) and for another friend too. i wanted to pay her back but she insisted on giving me. hehe. so sweeeeeeeet hor=) oh then during the break, i was telling abt how much i want to go out on sat str after the class and maybe group study but was afraid that i might be too tired and stuff. BEFORE i cld finish my sentence....."bzzzzz...bzzzzzzz..." my hp was vibrating. And the msg was from my friend who i had planned to meet up with str after class. HahaR. It was qte spooky. Speaking of the devil. Daniel, you're the devil. haha...=X eh but u din reply my sms. saded. Blah. hahaR.

hmm.......i saw the lecturer walking down the overhead bridge as i alighted from the bus. I was shocked and i scrambled to the lift, hoping and wishing that the lift will come soon, before he reached me. Bad luck. he came and smiled. he's strange. i'm scared of him.

sleepy again. Goodnight people.

Sleepy.

today I bought a whole walnut choc cake for my mum=) No special occasion. Just felt like buying for my mum. Ended up the cake tasted pretty good. heheee...well at least I liked it...alot. been really cake-frenzy ever since i started work. :S esp tiramisu flavour. no wait. I think every flavour EXCEPT strawberry. hehe. my mum bought great dinner for me tonight too. Loved the thunder tea rice =)

Oh. the whole company is having a "Movie Day" next friday. In engwah cinema. Ice Age 2. Then each one of us can bring an "immediate family member". but we have to book in advance. Feel like going actually. It's sponsored and the office gets to mingle with every dept (not that that is fun) but anw...it's at 740pm. and i have class. wtf. I feel like pon-tanning actually =P Anybody wanna come with me? I'll just say ure my sister/brother. I doubt i'll be the only one doing that. It's free anyway...wanna come? wanna come? anybody? invitation open leh...hahaR...

oh last fri, the company had a "Fruit Day" in conjunction with promoting a healthy lifestyle. So they distributed 3 bananas and an apple each. Hehe. Was qte good actually. Maybe because I was really hungry. So i ate 2 bananas for lunch. haha...and how many was left when I got home? Yes, 1 banana and an apple. hahaR. the HR dept sure organises strange events yah?

hmmmmm......i wanted to say sth. but i forgot. nvm.

i suspect i am anaemic. been feeling really tired everyday. Bedtime!...

[LAST WEEK: Oh yah, did i mention that the smell of coconuts and perfume SUCKS? Yah anyway, i am telling you it is really terrible. Esp when gotta squeeze in a crowded mrt with the person less than 10cm away from you. And that heavy odour just whets all your appetite. If I were to describe it, i'd probably smell like a combi of mango and rotten meat. That bad. Last week I had to hold my breath for abt 6 stops. And when I cldn't hold it any longer, I started to breathe thru my mouth and I felt like I was hyperventilating. Then finally, the person got out (thankfully) it was then that i cld breathe at ease again. The smell of fresh(er) air in a compact carriage. ]

Really tempted to take a day off tmr. I feel so jaded with work and all. tmr the bitch will be back from her hols. sigh.

a lecturer like pck. i don't feel like doing anything. spent the entire sunday watching tv. And not forgetting binging on roti prata and bah zang. So craving for a bar of crunchie...

i need retail therapy. it really does wonders! not to my pockets of course.

pee is coming. yay. not pee pee. But my long time thai friend, pee. =) haven't met him for more than a yr already since he went back. but i'm sure he'll be super busy for those 4 days. just hope that things will work out.

so where is that andrew wong huh?...

i can't really be bothered to update my blog anymore. right now, things look really bleak. so the contents are just hard-core complaints and tongue's lashings. i am even tired of repeating each trashy day's contents. So er...shall blog only when things augur a better start. Blah. So long.

another sucky entry to end my day. what started out to be qte a good day turned out just as rancid as the other days. This morning, this really nice bus driver decided to stop at the bus-stop and wait for me to cross the road which was buzzling with disgusting motorists who refused to stop OR are crawling at a snail's pace, leaving you to wonder if you shld take the chance to jaywalk at the point in time. Argh.

---office suck---

Ok...one of the supervisors asked me to go to carrefour to get raffia strings to tie the files. SHLDN'T HAVE GONE OUT. REALLY. She gave me 10 bucks as i happily proceeded out of the office into carrefour. After choosing 1 pink and 1 yellow bundle each after much contemplation, i was walking to the cashier when I realised...DAMN IT. I lost the 10 bucks. I panicked. Thankfully, had my hp with me. the only source of communication to the other temps. As I discreetly whispered to her to come down and rescue me because I didn't have money to pay for the strings, I cursed and swore at the idiot who I was very sure picked up that 10 dollars just when I dropped it in front of the pile of raffia strings. ARGH. he shld die a horrible death. Crap. And I didn't dare to tell the person lest i get a dressing down. But darn that person who stole my 10 bucks. Sigh. After my friend came to rescue me, I suddenly felt so sad. Like I can't even hold a 10 dollar note properly coz i was holding my hp and my access card. argh. argh. What to do. What's gone is gone. I still owe my friend 10 dollars coz i am really broke. Need to draw money AGAIN tmr. Blah. sux.

then in the evening, went to suntec convention for the food fair. Ate junk. Heaps of them. Enough said. =( and on the way home, got stopped at j8 by some prudential chap who insisted on stopping me in my tracks and ask me incessant qns. And it seemed just like another lecture all in the name of promoting that horrible bank interest thingy when all i wanted to do was to go home and wallow in my misery. BLAH BLAH BLAH...so he rattled on and on and on and on and on even with displeasure and lethargy written all over my face. Then he asked me where i lived and said he lived nearby and continued to describe to me where he lived. Happened to be really near. But he had to add in mandarin..."see, we are destined to meet." ?!?!?!!!!?!!?!!!!! BLAH. WHATEVER. I was like....."erm...it's j8...the chances of u living in this area is high you know..." ARGH..................I still can't believe I am sooooooo careless today....=( oh sh*t. I am so sad. sigh.

Been there. Done that. Big Aspirations, little me.

I think I am jinxed. my life is so trashy. How come the 1st time you see everyone they seem to be nice pple then after 1 mth everything changes? I Never believed that being nice wld get you nice deeds in return. I am not complaining. Maybe I am. But it's my blog and I am not complaining to anyone, only to you the nice soul who is reading my blog at your own will. I am sick of pple not wanting to listen; pple who are so annoyingly dao aka the stupid boss. Yes the other korean boss. The stupid boss who the bitch fell head over heels with. This is the 3rd time I smiled at him and he dao-ed me. WTF. Ok, so i am being sensitive. But what's with the whole office? pple bullying the temps, pple not even bothering to signal a 'hi' when you walk past. That is utterly disgusting--just reminds me of the freaking society where I last was for 3 yrs. Horrible pus-like odd-balls. The 1st few times I didn't take it too heart-maybe they were just stressed zombies. But after a week of crap that I had to endure. I'VE HAD ENOUGH. Each day I slog my head off, the thought of wanting to resign just floats alluringly ard me. I always believed that no matter where you go, it's the pple who mostly decides whether you enjoy it or not. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I really was wrong.

Then in the bus back home, I was literally stoning. Cldn't see anything out of my little view because I was seeing--not looking at things. Just visions and visions of pple in a crowded bus. I was thinking of so many things. I felt that perhaps this is not what I had always wanted. Perhaps I didn't really want to work in raffles place. Perhaps, I didn't like a 9 to 6 job. I always knew that I am not a quitter, so trust me, this is really one of my most extremes. Thus, this brings me to my My Next Aspiration? I wanna be a professional tai-tai. Retire from this dog-eat-dog world. Enjoy my young "golden years". Am dead serious. Own a yatcht to travel ard the sparkling ocean away from the world and own a little hut overlooking a beautiful, breath-taking cliff. And my itinery wld be to wake up every morning to admire the sunset and take a stroll along the white sandy beaches and at night, simply lie on the sand and count the stars......I can't do that in Japan, so I shall have to migrate to Europe or hawaii or America, anywhere that has place for a little being like me. That's my next goal. At least for the next 10 years I believe.

Today I waited at the taxi stand for the BUS. I was searching desperately for the bus numbers sign but I cldn't find it. So i just stood that and waited, thinking that it might be hidden in a secluded place. Obviously no buses came. 5 min later, a taxi pulled over and this caucasian guy asked me if i was boarding the cab. I said no and realised my mistake and acted as though I was waiting for a friend. Then, I scurried discreetly to the bus-stop 200m away, pretty much embarrassed by my blurness.

I AM PISSED WITH THE WORLD

TO THE BLOODY BITCH:

NUMBER 1: I AM NOT A MOVER. CAN'T YOU SEE I AM BUSY. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GODDAMN CARRY THE STUPID EMPTY BOXES INTO THE STOREROOM URESELF. THE OTHER PERSON ALREADY TOLD YOU I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO AND THAT THE BOXES ARE NOT URGENT, SO JUST FREAKING LEAVE ME ALONE. I WAS WEARING A SKIRT TOO.

NUMBER 2: STOP FLIRTING WITH THE BIG BOSS. HE IS ALREADY MARRIED. STOP EYE-ING HIM EVERY MOMENT LIKE A BITCHING HAWK AND STOP PRETENDING TO BE NICE. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT NICE. AND DON'T PRETEND LIKE YOU'RE THE SWEETEST PERSON ON EARTH EVERYTIME THE BOSS IS AROUND. DAMN YOU.

NUMBER 3: SHE IS NOT FROM OUR DEPARTMENT AND WHY THE HELL DID YOU SPEND SO MUCH TIME EXPLAINING TO HER WHEN YOU JUST FINISHED URE TRASHY EXPLANATION ABOUT THE COMPLICATED FILIING IN 5MIN TO US WHEN BOTH OF US ARE FROM THE DEPT.

NUMBER 4: IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TEACH ME, IT'S FINE. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO TELL ME WHERE I WENT WRONG, IT'S FINE. IF YOU CAN'T BE BOTHERED ANSWERING MY DOUBTS AT ALL, DON'T BLAME ME FOR NOT DOING IT RIGHT.

NUMBER 5: STOP GIVING ME THE PISSED OF LOOK JUST BECAUSE YOU CAN'T GIVE ME WORK BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE ALREADY GAVE ME ALOT.

NUMBER 6: THE OTHER 2 GIRLS FROM THE OTHER DEPT DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO AND THE OTHER SUPERVISOR SAID IT'S FINE TO HAVE NOTHING TO DO! YOU DON'T HAVE TO DELIBERATELY FIND SOMETHING FOR THEM TO DO TO MAKE THEIR LIVES HARDER.

NUMBER 7: STOP CLAIMING CREDIT FOR EVERYTHING THAT GOES WELL FOR THE BIG BOSS BECAUSE YOU AREN'T THE ONE WHO DID THOSE THINGS. THE OTHER GUY GOT THE BIG BOSS THE CAKE. NOT YOU. SO STOP TRYING TO CLAIM CREDIT AS IF YOU WERE THE ONE WHO PLANNED THE ENTIRE BIRTHDAY CAKE FOR HIM.

NUMBER 8: YOU ARE VERY FAKE.

NUMBER 9: YOU ARE NOT A LITTLE GIRL. STOP SKIPPING INTO THE BIG BOSS'S OFFICE EVERYTIME HE CALLS FOR YOU.

NUMBER 10: STOP TRYING TO INTERRUPT WHENEVER THE BIG BOSS TALKS TO ANOTHER FEMALE COLLEAGUE.

NUMBER 11: YOU SUCK. =)

AM REALLY VERY BLOODY BUSY AND STRESSED WITH WORK ALREADY. JUST LET ME BREATHE. EVERYTIME I LOOK OUT OF THE WINDOW I WANT TO FLY AWAY. WHERE TO I DON'T KNOW. JUST GIVE ME WINGS AND I'LL KNOW WHERE TO GO.

I WANT TO QUIT.

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*i think i feel better already. hahahahR...

I cried again while bathing because i felt really bad for raising my voice at my mum. I always cry whenever i do that. you know how sometimes you just don't want to (shout at someone) but you can't help it because of all the pent up anger raging and boiling within you and it seems as though nobody cares or knows. Worse still, they seem to be making things worse for you. Not only parents but even pple who you thought had understood you.

I think i need to sleep. Lots and lots of zzzzzzzzzz.

Went out with my dear cousin today. Had fun=) went to suntec, esplanade, citylink, fullerton hotel to play with fishes. (Disgusting large fishes. hehe...she agreed with me that they were gross!!!!!=)) to and fro here and there and had dinner at marche. Yum...the pizza and waffle. ooo. Had 2 slices of tiramisu cake today. Rich, RICH cake because it was one of the big bosses bday...38 years old. Ooo. hehe. I am fat. ARGH.

Then i forgot to get my labcoat from my cousin. ARGH. saded. sigh. Anw, tmr is friday. I am sleeeeeepy. Good night. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Oh btw, I DIDN'T GET RASHES!!! This calls for a celebration!!!=P hehee any takers for wine/beer? I survived 5% alcohol...weEEeE~ (irrelevant: Oh i realised that my friend who had the lychee martini had difficulty waking up this morning and her head was heavy. heehee) maybe i shld try. J/K.

the bridge outside fullertonhotel

sashimi, anyone?

more stupid fishes.

heavenly waffle man.

pizzaaaaaa!

WORK!!! sigh.

computer screen

card from shu

today was a busy, busy day

Oooooooo!!! I finally went to a bar today!!!=) after work, some colleague asked us if we wanted to go for a beer or sth. We went to balaclava just before suntec. i had always wanted to go each time i walked past that place. hehe i asked for a non-alcoholic drink and had a cocktail (i think) and he ordered a lychee sth for the other girl. Had a rather high alcoholic content i reckon and I dared not even sip a bit lest my rashes start bursting out and i'll be staying in for abt a week or so. Then one of the big bosses joined us. and it was kinda the 1st time i spoke to him although he asked me some stuff abt aust when we were abt to knock off earlier. And apart from the fact that i spoke to him once when i offered him my birthday cake last friday. Anw, were chatting and i realised that each time someone mentions that i am studying physio, they wld inevitably rake up something from a thousand years (or squeeze dry every brain-juice) just to tell a story abt how they had neckache or ankle sprain or hip OA or shoulder pain or backpain or knee replacement or whatever crap one can dig out within his life-span. And then they will start telling tall tales and adventures abt how they went to this inefficient doc/physio/clinician and how they wld refer him (usually a him) to another hospital and dept. Darn. Hey but it's always interesting to listen abt this stuff coz somehow you know that they merely wanna strike a conversation with you. Oddest of things and weirdest of events but...yeah i get the point=) Hmm...this is one ailing society. haha.

Anw, back to the bar thing. and then all of a sudden, the big boss started to offer me a permanent job because apparently he is in-charge of searching for ONE permanent staff right now. (why me? he probably thought i was too free since the other 3 girls wld be starting uni in time to come) hahaaR which i was kinda shocked to the offer because the job scope will probably only start full-swing next wk so...who knows? I might jolly well die then. Blah. Interesting stuff. hehe...i feel so adult-ish sitting in a smoky bar with all the blue collar pple. Was surprised that the bar was pretty crowded, considering it is a wednesday night. The cigarette-filled atmosphere (even though we sat indoors) was horrid and rancid but eventually, somehow i grew immune to it. And my shirt and skirt was soiled that when i asked my mum to smell me, she had a shock and possibly thought I went for a puff at work. And to add to that, that colleague who invited us started to light his 2nd and subsequent cigaretteS and started puffing away. Hard not to get a (heaps of) whiffs of it eh?...=P then the boss too. But oh well. The whole bar smelt that way already let alone pple at our table. Oh then the boss left for a function I think, and they were left with 2 extra beers that they ordered earlier, so that colleague asked me to drink. BTW, BEER SUCKS. It's so blardy bitter. I don't like it. 5% alcohol. Some japanese ayasaki or dunno what rubbish. And I prayed (hard) that my rashes won't emerge or you'll not see me for 1 week. Sigh. Pleaseeeeee!!! Oh i like root beer/sparkling beer actually, the 7-eleven one that dan got the last time. Haha...that was sweeter and what, non-alcoholic?...

ooo had Kenny Rogers for lunch=) I actually made this stranger travel from tampines to suntec (serious) just because i said that I am pressed for time during lunch. how sweet. haha. Actually he was the one who indirectly got me this job. Yes, a stranger, some promoter for insurance I met at junction8 abt a mth ago. haha. So i had just wanted to ask him out to thank him. that was a funny time. I didn't want to listen to him initially, with the excuse that "nooo...i am not interested" when he tried to ka-chau me and I feigned to scramble away faster and faster BUT he said "at least listen to me 1st lah" (maybe i shld be glad i did)...haha ok, i thought he was qte poor thing...(ADMIT IT. nobody listens to pple who sells insurance lah) I DID. And then somehow he found out I was job-hunting thru a series of questions and kindly introduced me to some random person who i contacted and got the job. Some stranger eh? =)

Oh, lately the pple keep telling us to go home and not do OT...because...blah because of the pay issue lah. While I try to squeeze every single amt out of OT, there they are, cajolling us to GO HOME.

Today, we finally had our pass to the backdoor!!! so we don't have to keep borrowing the pass from another staff to go to the washroom which is just beside the backdoor. And that includes mornings too. No more walking thru the front-door, past the reception and ard the whole office or past depts just to get to our place which is near the backdoor=)

Every morning...I have to jostle with the others in the mrt which is literally like sardines in a can. Unbearable BOs, coconut smells on the hair and the repugnant closet-clothes "aromas" which fill my nostrils every morning because everyone is less than 30cm away from each other. you name it, you have it. Whatever strawberry-banana-orange-durian trash-smell that you have on a crowded mrt. Blah. Too bad. Gotta squeeze like strawberry-jam for now. Wait till i get my Alfa Romeo. HahaR =P Then i saw this guy in a suit on the overhead bridge giving out pamphlets. my heart really goes out to him. In this hot and humid weather, imagine being the scrutiny of indifferent passers-by (like me). Sweat pouring down from just about every single pore in the body. ARgh. Gross.

Despite the butt-to-butt/ass-to-ass contacts in the mrt, ultimately, it's nice to literally slide across the floors and way past everyone when the gates open JUST BECAUSE...just because I am wearing slippers. i get puzzled looks and kapo glares every morning but darn, it's called PRACTICALITY, people!!!...Wear those freaking heels and see how slow the ladies crawl from one end of the mrt station to the other. And let's see, what will happen when these "heel-pple" are late for work? Don't expect them to run, for they will probably destroy their beloved americaya/hushpuppies/charles&keith/BATA heels. My advice, next time just bring ure darn slippers. You get the repulsive and dumb stares but...hmm...Just Walk Faster to avoid the observant eyes. hehe. Oh also, lately i discovered more and more guys keeping long hairs? Hmm is there a mass-closing down of barber shops lately? Or are pple just too busy to give a damn abt maintaining their fringe? *tsk* In the mrt, i came across a few guys whose hair reminded me of fruits. YES, fruits (so great is my imagination...i was sian lah, ok?=p) There was one whose unkempt outgrowth resembled a rambutan, another a durian and another...was it worms of sth?...i can't remember what...but yah nothing good. HehE.

Oh well.

oh thanks for the sweet (smelling) bday present and sweet card! Sorry i cldn't meet you downstairs because of the time constraints...let's hang out soon!!!

Tmr is another day. And I am sleeeepy. *yawn*