ARGH. SO jealous. I really like my sis's dress. I can't wait to shop at orc again!!!...

93 days and counting...

I am amused that the same events happen all in the same week. Had 3 pple catching up this week. 1st it was my high sch friend, then it was aunty's daughter, then it was my brother. Pple who I haven't talked to in a while. All in the same week! How coincidental.

Happy birthday sg! =) After celebrating for 16 years of my life...I haven't indulged in the festivity for 3 years. = somewhat like my own. haha...

FINALLY! One of the longest times that I ever had to wait for the internet server to work again-4hrs.

It's a cloud-filled day. Can barely see the baby blue sky. Only fluffs of cotton wool clouds.

Had a strange dream last night. Dreamt of my sec sch classmates. Dreamt that we were going to a friend's house but somehow it had been a long journey. Ended up crossing a road, climbing a small hill and doing an obstacle course. Mounting windows, bricks, white-washed walls and to end up on a small wall overlooking a panaromic view of the sea, buildings and the sky. Very much like a bird's eye view. It had been taxing. And then...I was the 2nd last person to climb a brick-somewhat like a monkey bar. I had to leap and get my hands into the little crevices by the side of the block. Suddenly, I leapt but cldn't get my hands up and above the slab of white brick. I fell and was startled. And that was when I woke up...my heart thumping so quickly that it nearly sprung out...what a nightmare!

Had another dream. Dreamt that I was with nearly the same group of pple and we were at a beach resort with a small pool just outside the sliding door. We were playing ard and I can't really recalled what happened. It involved a card that I received from one of my friends, I can't remember who. It was just weird. Pure eccentric. There were pple in the scene who I wasn't familiar with as well, just 'hi-bye' pple. I don't know what happened...

I sound so much like I psychic or worse still, a lunatic. Just what do all these dreams represent and signify?...I feel so abnormal.

Will be alone for 2 days. sis's away at a camp and I am glad to say that I caught up with my beauty sleep last night. Something I probably haven't had in a while...

Had a successful retail therapy yesterday. I finally found something I liked and bought it. =) Was ruminating over and over about this top that I came across. Clearly, it was something I had wanted but I didn't feel like trying it on. The changing room was at the other end of the store and perhaps I was lazy. At the same time, I was wondering if they had bk in singapore. I didn't want to buy clothes that were so common at home. It simply meant that I cld get it at a cheap price and I didn't have to lug home 1 luggage of clothes- my luggage is always so full and I end up not even wearing them when I am home because there are heaps more back in my cupboard. The pains of growing up. I wished I had a closet of fancy dresses just like a princess or something. Haha. Did you watch clueless? That girl sure has everything in store for her. Even a personally computer that picks out and matches her top for her. Haha. Dreaming...

I am actually watching a culinary show. hehe. Must have been influenced by my mum. Watching it is one thing. Cooking is another. I do like to cook but not the washing up. Therefore, my theory is that...no cook=no wash. Haha. On the other hand, the calories are just so sinful. What, cheeeeeese and pancakes and more more more cheeeeeese...haha the fats in there alone can probably make up someone's meals for 1 week!...

eh...what am I rumbling on and on about? I really feel like going for another episode of retail therapy yet I am too lazy to lug myself out of the house. And...by the time this snail manages to settle the nitty-gritty things, the shops wld have closed..at 5pm! like HELLO? Shop keepers actually start work at this time in singapore!!!...I miss having to walk to the wee hours of maybe 12am in singapore...haha and you can still find things to do...don't you agree, brother? haha...

93 more days!=) If the humidity level in singapore was like here...I'll nv enter this land again...=)

On a full moon...=)

a particular sunset... 

Drag-queen

Yet another backbreaking day (literally and figuratively). Started the day at 6am and am half-dead now. =( and hungry. and weary. and totally drained from head to toe. Here I am, 5.45pm sitting and dragging my fingers across the keyboard and trying to recall my day...

Well...in the morning, I was kinda intimidated holding the floor for qte a while, attempting to list the components of 'pathophysiology of degeneration of nerves" when seriously I wasn't even sure if it was revelent. Anyhow, I was kinda freaked out when qned abt the probability. But oh well. Geez. Let's see...something hilarious happened in the lib. Maybe NOT that hilarious and then again...was doing research for [sucky] PBL when this friend came over while having music blasted in his ears with his earplugs. Then he so conveniently shouted "CAN I BORROW YOUR PHOTOCOPYING CARD?" at what, 200 decibels. haha LOL and this other guy turned ard and stared at him. I think his voice cld probably be heard throughout the whole level. hehe. Then I had to gesture him to take off his earplugs. Geez...

Wished I had a more fruitful research going on. Got more than a couple of smses throughout the whole of lunch. Oh boy...

Oh I didn't realise that she was so kao bei lah. Did she have to tell all the prac tutors that the int' students didn't attend the meeting? Haiz. I think spending the 1hr on sth else wld be more effective than attending her crappy class. Argh.

I so don't feel like mugging. But what's with the not comprehending the lects everyday?!!!....The lecturer's a drag, neuro's a drag, physio is...a drag. It's just soooooooooooooooo taxing. and somehow I always leap into my dream world in the middle of physio lects.........ArGh!

The only regret I ever had was to waste my time on him...I realised that we have zilch in common except that he's chi on the exterior. It's just so hard to initiate a conversation. except...how's sch? How's ure hols? Nth more than boundaries pertaining to these issues...geez

I am never going to ask him out again. seem's like he's soooo busy. with what? Studying?...

today we were looking at gait for physio prac and the tutor called us 'boys and girls' and immediately after saying that he changed it to 'men and women'. I am a woman? Haha..........

95 more days and counting!=)

Hi world. Good morning. Kicked started my day at 9am today. Actually I woke up at 8am which is considered extremely early for a sunday morning. Didn't exactly have a 'good rest' or so you call it. Woke up at 5am, 7am, 8am. Who knows why?...Just another reflex thingy. I guess I need to be hypnotised...

I dream every night. I wonder if it's normal...

21 times. that's how many times I...but it seems like each time the image is getting more and more vague. He's just someone in the far background. Cld be anybody, really. How I wish he wldn't even be a 'somebody' in the background anymore.

I've been dreaming of my family. So much that I never had that feeling before. In my dreams, I am always running. Maybe not physically but I know, mentally and emotionally. I always seem to be in a hurry. Rushing to hop on a train--destination: maybe nowhere. perhaps home. I have no idea. I seem to be in confinement. Locked up away. Somewhere. In my heart? In my head? In my life? hehe. That's pretty sad huh. Oh well.

Hehe. Ironically, the song 'I Will Survive' keeps repeating itself on my laptop. >_- hehe

Time to change song!...-Fairy of Snow- one of the tunes from the korean serial "Last Christmas"...

The sign of the Fish is traditionally imaginative, sensitive, compassionate, selfless and unworldly.

haha.

It's so hard to get into the momentum of studying again...=(

Check this out. Got this webby since the beg of the yr and I just got a recap. Can never solve. If you can, let me know!=)
http://crux.baker.edu/cdavis09/roses.html

I have a mission--to survive my time here...

my desktop...=)

sun setting at the jetty...

nice purple sky=)

I realised that I've got so many dreams that I have yet to fulfil.

Yest, I lay in bed, musing about the things I have yet to try and desire to do.

1) fly a kite
2) visit the most beautiful beaches in the world
3) visit europe
4) go to bahamas and fiji island
5) water-skiing
6) snow-skiing/snow-boarding
7) go to america
8) learn violin
9) learn guitar
10) build a sand castle
11) speak up confidently in front of more than 3 pple

Some impossible dreams that are out of the qn include:
be a dancer staged together with famous singers=P
be a ballerina
be a competitive swimmer
take up synchonize swimming
be an acclaimed pianist=P
be an athlete
be a lawyer-lol...Actually I just wish to be able to speak up confidently in front of more than 3 pple=)
be a model (LOL)
be a millionaire
have my own private plane and yacht-WoW...*dreams*

well...you don't need $$$ to dream...

haha right now? Right now I just wanna go home...=)

I love my mummy=)

well...so I am alone again. geez. Can't wait for the end of nov. When all stress is (hopefully) all gone. Today is sat. I don't really feel like doing much. Crappy weather. Gloomy and all. No sun. It's like going to rain anytime and the sky is like this the entire day. Man. Sigh.

I know God will guide me through my life. Through these 4 more mths. Everyday is a day lesser to dec. =)

shu where r u?...=p

2 mths just zoomed by so quickly that before I know it, it is gone. Now I have to work my way every morning, and night. And weekends. ~~~

abstract art...through a window pane... 

Look! I found a Sir Stamford Raffles-wannabe. hurhur. =P 

that's a little cottage... 

looks like a scene from batman. Haha 

on a winter's day...the trees are so naked 

...and after 

before... 

Neo-Nazi march woke her up
MS Janemee Wong hadher firstbrush with racism five years ago.
One week after leaving Singapore toenroll in United World College in Trieste, Italy, she heard there was aneo-Nazi protest happening downtown.
'Irealised I was now a stranger in someone else's country,' said Ms Wong, nowa 23-year-oldundergraduate at Brown University in the US.
'It was the first time I realised that in placesoutside Singapore, I could be killed for my skin colour. I could have beenkilled because I was notwhite.'

Quoted:
He said: 'Before I left Singapore, I was never conscious that ethnicity could fracture society. I had a 'We are all the same' mentality.' '

ref: new paper

Geez...that's pretty true...

New Paper-physio

Fortunately, there is now a pain management programme - Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) - which teaches patients to manage their pain by various techniques.

Dr Lee, who is spearheading the CBT programme at TTSH, is encouraged by the success of the programme in Australia.

So he has invited a team from the Royal North Shore Hospital in Sydney to conduct the first such programme here.

CBT can help by:
improving the way you manage your pain;
reducing reliance on unhelpful medication;
helping you return to pre-injury activities;
improving your mood, confidence and sleep; and
helping rehabilitation and return to work (despite pain).

Cool~~ I didn't know that cognitive behavioural therapy is used in real life.

Oh, did I mention that neuro is hard? Haha. Yes, IT IS. Not as if today's lect was any better. It caught wondering what the heck she was talking abt. Argh. To make matters worse, these 2 med friends of mine were 'surprised' that I had an 8am start and they said that they had mostly 11am starts. Me? 9am. =S Then they have 19-23hrs contact hrs. Me? probably 23hrs. I can't rem. Why must the physios learn so much!!!...Boohoohoo. Blehz.

I got an email!=) Surprisingly, I didn't open it the moment I got the mail. Wondered why. I think it was probably because I was afraid that 'the journey of waiting' was over. Anyhow, I opened it abt 4 hrs later.=P Previously, I know I wld be so eager to open it. Oh well.

Had [another] disgusting ardous gruelling day today. Erm erm erm...oh I thought I saw my friend in the lib today and I (shouted...it was qte loud=X) 'hi' then the guy turned ard and said 'hi' very somewhat enthusiastically with a big smile on his face, LOL. To my dismay. haha. Guess what? Mistaken identity=P haha so I smiled and walked off. I was sooooo totally embarrassed. Fortunately (or maybe unfortunately) there was so one ard. So I was hoping to feign ignorance. Hahaa...that maybe the guy heard wrongly or sth. Haha. Ok, I know I was qte pathetic. But oh well. Received a smile in return. I guess that's what matters!!!=) Not to mention it was embarrassing though...

I wanna watch a movie!!!!!!! Someone ask me out!..haha...but he's busy on tues lah...when the tix are cheap. = Sigh. Haha. blah blah blah blah blah. Oh I think my pbl tutor is cute. Haha. But then again, not like it will make any difference...I'll still stay mute and he'd probably just serve to distract me more. hahaaR...Pbl are hideous. Their purpose is simply to dig out the quiet bums amongst the rowdy crowd of speakers. Yah, Quiet bum. I was just sitting there like a vase lah. As usual. It's just excruciating painful (kinda) to just SIT THERE and trying not to make any big mvts or sounds. Sometimes I wish I was more extroverted. He said the only way is to practise. It's hard. Yes, it's hard. Practise on who? Not like I was born to be a public speaker or a politician. laalalalalaa...argh.

Oh, had this funny friend yest. we were talking abt an 8am start today and she said she has prac in the morn and she appeared really happy--all for a cause. She said "my prac tutor is very pretty". Geez. Er...Ok. I thought she shld be looking for 'eye candies' instead and also...a pretty tutor doesn't make much of a diff to an 8am start, does it?...That is unless she stares at her for the whole 2hrs? Haha. Aiy...I don't know what I am talking abt again lah.

Interesting bond girl??? hmm *muses*...LOL

I think he is cute...=P *grins*...

Hi. So exhausted after the 1st day of school.
2nd day of sch. A gruelling 2 hr lecture on THE BRAIN.
Man, neuro is hard. You have the so many many many many many components of neuro. =X It's just...hard.

Oh apparently, this coursemate switched to law and commerce after 1 1/2 yrs. erm. That's not very encouraging, is it?...=S

Cldn't do much but doze off after coming bk today. Actually I am kinda brain-dead now, as you can tell. I even forgot what I wanna type. Er...er...except that maybe school's not nice=P
Oh and we did a plaster cast yest which turned out qte messy as you'd expect. The clay-thingy was flowing all over the place. Or all over my forearm. Sigh. Neuro is hard. Period. Surprised that we are still having lects with the med students. That's like 3 out of 4 semesters tog...

argh. *tears brain out*

Hey, school sucks=(
The timetable is worse than last sem's btw.
Argh. My last day of freedom.

on racism- Part...(I can't remember what...)

Just another entry to complain. If you don't feel like reading, I shan't coerce you. This isn't the 1st time I face such sh*t. and the 2nd time within a short time-frame.

Well, a couple of bitches just #*^*ed lah=P Was walking along some retarded road in this disgusting country and somehow they were asking for sth and I was talking to my mum hence I completely ignored them and walked off. Then the 1st bitch called out to the other bitch whether she saw that and bitch number said no so bitch number 1 explained to her how "THEY ASIANS" are ignorant and whatever rubbish. Like HELLO?! you are from asia too. Oh I just forgot they are what we, asians call "Red-Headed" arrogant b***ards and bitches. I can't just stand it when they only SEE you when they need sth when more than half the time we are the invisible human beings. Try harder man. Just piss off.

Saw the fountain at crown and I was reminded of the one at bugis junction. How the kids there played in the water under their parents' watchful eyes. I miss that... I kind of (not really vow, vow) but promised myself never to ever come here in the future after my studies. Trust me, it is a freaking place and I mean it. I know what I am talking abt. Anthony was so right. These big-headed pple are hitlers inside (and maybe outside too). Somehow they so wrongly believe that they are the superior race. wth. Continue deceiving yourselves. Yet another lazy bummer who merely work half the hours of us in sg. !!!!!!!!

Then walked past s st. The place where I wld take a bus to the airport. Wishing so much that the end of nov will come. ='( 105 days and counting...

My best advice to anyone: DON'T ever come here for studies. Period.

midst...from my breath on a cold rainy winter's day...haha

walked to bridge rd yest. It was a really really wet day. Probably the heaviest rainfall that they ever have here.--and it is only half that of what they have back home. I guess it is heavy as long as we can hear the rain. ;)

Home
Just let me go home
I'm too far
From where you are...

Incomplete

I love these songs.=)

Kinda lost count now. Hmm 108 days?! =) Whee!...

I miss shopping at orc rd. haha. I think at least I know what to expect and what I can buy there...More summer clothes!...I don't really fancy buying winter clothes or jackets anymore. Summer clothes interest me=) although it's not summer right now...haha...
20 more weeks...to the end of nov...and then it's HOMEEEEEE! *muackz*

on being a pest

Good Ridance=)

Hi, I am stressed. Hmm. Then again, when am I not stressed? Nv a wee second in my life, probably. It is the pinnacle yet? I wonder. Sometimes it scares me so much that I believe I can just burst out laughing all of a sudden or just tremble incessantly. It's terrifying with what one can do under stressful situations. My life, my time, my family, my friends. It constitutes my whole life isn't it? One hurdle after another. It's never going to stop, is it? I feel so disgusted. With I don't know what. Myself? Pple? Situations? Argh! Who doesn't want to feel like a princess? Be showered with all gifts or talents, of riches, of luxury? I...I...I wish.

What a gloomy day. It's been raining the entire day. One of my firsts here. I so long to go home. To embrace the warmth of family and friends. Be snuggling up in my very own bed without springs poking me and drilling into my bones each time I turn. I wish. 116 days and counting.

Meanwhile, I really pray that the problems can be resolved the sooner the better, in the best possible solution. It feels horrible. It feels as though I am the culprit. Maybe I was but now it doesn't make me feel any better. Where is my guardian angel?...

I am no bond girl. Night is falling and the sky remains depressing.

On unwelcomed rubbish.

I totally detest Free Loaders.

Hey there. It's July. =)

Ignorance IS bliss.

The day before there was a demonstration in the city. The result? No heater on a winter's day. Brr...I wonder just how many man-days are lost purely by demonstration agst the government.

Another cloudy day. I can barely see the sun.

S-i-a-n.