Ah. Idiot. the internet connection conked out because my sis just hung up the phone. There goes my blog. Damn irritating.

On re-typing:
Argh. I am lazy to type it again.

2 points:

pt 1) Had a sudden impulse to read a blog dated back to 5th feb and 12th feb. I felt happy reading it again. They happened 2 mths ago. I am looking forward to doing that again in 7 mths time. Miss chilling out with friends.

pt 2) Watched ER earlier and was glad that I cld relate to the medical terms and conditions. Rouses me to watch more. Never watched it at home because I didn't know what they were talking about. Now it makes me feel like the medical complications printed in the books are part of day to day life which occurs so very often.

notice how incoherent the blog entry is. Just cutting my crap short. Period. End of story.

Just watched the news that 2 women stole the 10cm plasticinated foetus from the body worlds. Heartless pple. And newsreader said that pple hope that the body worlds exhibition will come to aust soon. blah blah blah. Why is this country always 2nd to everything? Or maybe just 2nd to singapore. just admit it lah. they are slow. =X

madness

I have decided to be nice and give him chocs for post-easter. Not him Him but him. Aiy...just feel like being nice lah...although he hasn't been nice to me. haha. I think the hot water from the bath just scalded my brain...anyway...isn't it nice to be nice? yah and that's when hopefully pple will be nice to me too. haha...madness.

it's so hot! stupid weather.=p

I want to go home...

Funny. I realised that my latest blog wasn't posted. Hmph. Was saying that I really missed home and that I 'saw' my friend's face last night. I dreamt of my other sis last night and that it was as if I just turned 13 yesterday.

Yesterday, my sister was saying that God is coming again for the 2nd time. The tell-tale signs being that there are many earthquakes lately and it was written in the bible that God will not say when he is coming but will drop hints to us. I was a little terrifed then because if God took all the Christians, I will be lonelier than ever. And I know God won't take me. I just know it. So why am I living? Isn't it all Christians' desire to want to go to heaven? Maybe not, I don't know. And I can't remember what else I blogged. Just that it was in the morning and I guess I was spouting trash. Bleh. Weird. Why wasn't my blog posted.

feeling both crappy and crabby today. Holidays shld nv end. Schools shld nv commence. Hols shld nv end and schools shld nv commence. haha. but it's not as if if I chant a hundred more times it will happen. =P

7+ more mths=)

I regret standing up for her.

friend: who is your prac tutor?
me: felicia
friend: oh is it the...(then she made an expression with bug teeth)

It was her but I thought it was a little mean to jeer at her unusually large bunny teeth that prevented her from even closing her mouth fully.
But maybe I shldn't even care because she has been treating us internationals like sh*t. Like I am serious. She said she wld come back and check on whether we are revising correctly or not. And after her 2nd round, she deliberately avoided D and mine's corner so that she didn't have to come and check on us. I was pissed because I missed the prac and she didn't even bother telling me anything. ANYTHING on the sulcus and apprehension tests. What kind of freaking teacher is that! Ironically, marrilyn who I was complaining abt 9 mths ago is a much much much much much much better tutor than her. In terms of experience and generosity. No doubt she talks too much crap abt her kids but still she is a much just tutor who wld help me whenever I was in doubt. You know, it is a sin for my current tutor to continue teaching.

Oh well. God is watching=)

eh...on love-again. I think I am glad that things shld end here. And will end here. There were really sweeeeeet memories (and not too sweet ones) but all in all, I guess I shld be satisfied that I am left with the sweet ones that can at least make me smile whenever I think of the whole incident and the stupidity on my part. I know I miss these memories. However, I really shld be grateful that the sweet ones took place so I shldn't be pre-occupied with the not so sweet ones. Still, I am trying very hard to forget him, forget the memories, forget the past and I know I am almost there, just a little swayed each time I..................... I know God will always be with me to conquer and overcome my fears, melancholy and thoughts that I really shldn't be reminiscing about. I just pray that I will never see him again...

Smile=)

Threw Abby away last night because abby stinks. Interesting dissection of an abalone though. End of story for abby.~

Listening to: Lost without you

Today was a not too bad day=) well went to market with my sis and went for lunch alone. I felt like a tai-tai. For once. haha. (Seldom eat out alone but today I realised that it is part of life's enjoyment to not be choked while talking to a friend and eating and also enjoying your meal without having the stress of someone waiting for you to finish your meal=) ) Called my mum yest and she was having sushi with my dad so I decided to go for sushi at a restaurant too...haha, after much contemplation. It was soooo good that I cried. Haha. No lah...it was the wasabi. My favourite wasabi. Very shiok. =P had wanted to go the shrine (which I call the 'swine'...haha) but nah...weather wasn't that nice and I didn't exactly feel like walking so much today. eh...loitered ard the city again. Wanted to treat myself to something nice like buying some clothes I fancy. Unfortunately, I cld find none. Maybe I didn't search hard enough. Or maybe I just didn't feel like buying. You know how a girl's mood is just so incomprehensible...hehe...anywayz...after having a delectable lunch, I was satiated. woaw...I just looooove sashimi. haha...back to the point. I got a drink for like 6 bucks...okie lah qte healthy haha...and went to borders for abt 45min? Time really passed so quickly. I didn't even do much there. Just look look see see (but no play mahjong).

Then walked ard david jones and saw the mammoth amount chocs for easter. I wanted to buy some for my friends and then I didn't know who to give to. haha. That's weird right. Sad but true. And I was thinking, had I been in singapore maybe it wldn't be such a big problem. =X I cldn't possibly mail the chocs back eh?...hehe IF one day someone invents a machine that can transport my chocs bk to singapore within a day, I will buy it. haha...till then...Bleh...

And...Everytime I see black forest cake I am reminded of him. I guess it's just that I haven't really came across anyone who told me that "as long as it's BF cake, I'll eat it."Haha maybe if you who are reading this tells me this, I might think of you and get that thing for you...haha...hmm..oh wanted to get a piece of cake for my sis but I think she'll prob kill me for giving her the extra cellulite so...oh well. haha...

Then proceeded to QV to see what I can do there and was 'challenged' by myself to get an ice-cream. Haha. So sinful right? But I cldn't help it. Perhaps due to the weather, I was feeling a little moody already at this time. Was searching for sth other than choc...it was pretty hard search. The only alternative was sorbet. I don't really mind that. Then I read the sign: 0% fat and I was thinking "yeah right...=P" Everything we eat has at least some fat in there. Don't tell me the whole tub of sorbet was carbs or protein!? haha...Anyhow, I still got 2 sorbet flavours. It was so-so. NZ natural was the brand. Well...it did cheer me up a wee bit..hehe...

Came bk, my sis was expecting guest. I decided to go gym. Achieved some inspiration. I think I finally understand my 'plight'. Yeah...all because of a bicycle. haha. I am weird eh? Always getting inspiration from the most minute things pple can find. Well...isn't that how inspiration's born anyway?=)

I recalled how pain-staking it was for the Jap waitress at the restaurant to tell me sth...I took such a long time to understand what she said...

Her: 1 door-ra. (me thinks)
Me: Sorry I can't understand you.
Her: 1 door-ra. (smiling in embarrassment)
(me still lost)
me: 1 bowl? (of rice)
(she starts drawing the dollar sign in the air)
(me thinks)
me: oh.......1 DOLLAR!...I thought it was free? haha...
*tsk tsk*
and then she comes back saying that she made a mistake. The rice was free =P

Passed by a CD shop and saw ant' callea, the aust idol runner-up's poster for his new album. qte cute lah...if he smiles...anyway don't like him. but this one he wasn't smiling and I think he looks like a chee ko pek and a paedophile=X.

Dinner time!!!=)


yah yah. whatever. how do you expect me to tell you if you don't tell me? '_'

Haiz. The abalone is still in its shell and sitting in a bowl. I really don't know what to do with it. Maybe i'll just keep it as a pet. haha. 1st I don't know if it's clean to be eaten. 2nd, I really don't know how to deal with it. As in cook. Clean, wash. And it is shrinking. Like qte sad. Initially it was as big as the shell, now I can see the edges of the shell. It's getting smaller. So sad. haha...

crown... 

pet abalone shrank...=P 

intestines...=X 

sad abalone. haha...the intestines are super yucky and squishy I tell you..eew... 

Happy=)

Damn funny. Went to the beach today.=) and when I was at the jetty, this guy came up to me and asked me "Miss, do you eat fish?" Yes. "Abalone?" Yes. And he put down his 'gym' bag and rummaged among his towels and gave me this huge abalone. HahaR. This bigger than the size of my palm. Like from the wrist crease to 3/4 or 1/2 of my fingers. And it weighs qte heavy. =X I think I looked like an idiot carrying this abalone ard. Thankfully I had a plastic bag with me. Nonetheless, it was transparent so I received strange stares. Pple probably thought what is this girl doing with an abalone!...I felt like throwing it back into the sea. Haha. And then again. Nah...I haven't had abalone for a long time. Let alone such a huge one. Problem is, how do you cook it? haha...I asked him...he told me to shred it and eat it...and another way is to heat up the oil and fry it for 5s and eat with tata sauce. Erm...that is if I didn't hear wrongly. I was kinda amazed at his catch so I guess I didn't really hear! haha...Funny.

I love the beeeeaaaacchhhhhhhhh!!!=) nice weather. Weird wearing a winter jacket to the beach but oh well...sea breeze was cool. As in literally and not literally. hehe...=) I am happy.

FLO-WER...FLO-WER. orchid. Nah...it's not orchid. haha...

nice carpet grass and alfresco setting 

flowers are blooming... 

the fountain is on today!=) 

some art carvings... 

lurking with evil...=P 

the playground... 

close up of the playground 

was trying to take the sign actually...=P 

artistic. 

the museum (and my exam hall...^_^") 

flower show is on again...3rd year already!... 

I feel so small 

and yet again... 

some korean restaurant on the way...I really like the set-up of a little cottage=) 

the dark alley... 

my yum-mo-licious bread with red bean inside...=P 

Does cinderella really exist? I guess it's just fiction. Glass shoes is such a nice korean show...

chatted with jb for a couple of hrs. from castles to god to murderers to life. hehe. It's was awe-inspiring and my brain is exploding just thinking abt these issues. Of course there is no right and wrong. it was nice to discuss though=) thankew.

I am off to...(take pictures?)=p well...

Laundry day. I find that one of the toughest things in washing is the wringing part. Because you see, I 'bo luck'. I need to train my biceps. ^oo^ that is apart from the scrubbing and scrapping till my skin falls off.

Had this little tiny stain on my white blouse. Cldn't really get it out but then it is so tiny it probably ain't visible to passers-by. haha. Well, my point being that no matter how hard we may try to choose to deceive ourselves abt something that had happened to us, there will always be a stain remaining in our lives that we can never remove. So, shld we try even harder to evade it? I don't know. Haha...didn't know that washing clothes cld inspire thoughts? Neither did I.=)

When I hung the clothes on the rack to dry. I realised that 3 blue tops were sitting side by side. And...I've got more blue in my cupboard.hehe. Different shades. hmm...I really need more colour in my life!=) aka more clothes aka I need to go shopping. Haha. I can draw a flow diagram. =P

On love. Was ruminating abt the Jap series I watched yest. One couple out of 3 had a happy ending. Yes, in the 3rd episode. The guy (A) was told by the girl (B) who likes him but whom he didn't like that the girl (C) he truly likes, finally likes him back too. If I were girl B, I wld do the same too. I know it hurts a tonne but then what's the point of holding onto unreciprocated love? I think the greatest love is from girl B (obviously) because it simply meant that she loved him so much that she was willing to sacrifice her happiness to see guy A happy. I don't think it's abt an issue of being magnanimous but rather, true love. I think this is the way true love shld be...=)

Listening to: Sick and tired.

I know that we will go our separate ways eventually and we will never see each other again and I know you will just forget this existence. Thus, I am not pinning any hopes on any outcome. Yet why do I keep dreaming of you? 15 times. I have never experienced that before. Some sweet some bitter. I thought the bitter one was the ending. I can foresee the ending. You just don't know what you are doing right now and when you finally do, you will realise that it was all a waste of your time (and mine). She is the one for you...///No doubt the more we don't have it, the more we want to possess it but I learnt that knowing that the person you love is happy is the most important thing...I just wish I will never see you again. There is no outcome. It's the shortest and fastest route to forget you...

Haha...

Daylight saving begins/ends todaY!=) 1 more hr to zzz...I am soooooo cold cold cold cold cold cold cold cold...

Listening to: too serious too soon.
gareth gates

Had a really good walk down at yarra river today!=) watched the sun set. Well almost. I saw the sky blushing...it was beautiful. Had the sea breeze blowing my face and the reflection of the sun's rays on the blding. It was blissful. And it was nice to watch this spectacle. Saw this couple making out in a bench nearby...for 1/2 hr. How romantic. And saw this elderly couple still so loving; walking arm in arm on the yarra bridge =) it was simply a perfect picture. Afar this mum and her 2 kids caught my attention. She was racing with her 2 boys and encouraging them to run along. Motherly love. What an endearing painting and a patient mother.

Did I hoped that someone was there with me? I am not sure. However, I thought to myself. Perhaps only JB wld enjoy such a scenery with me. Afterall, I know that he likes the sea no less than I do. The weather was great-(guess because I wore enough). I cld have just sat there forever chatting with a great friend...but oh well. It was pretty nice to enjoy nature and peace.=) God bless!

My favourite picture of the sunset=) 

one of seagulls decided to corner me. haha... 

cotton wool clouds!!! 

er...can't really see the nice sky. those are birds btw. haha