boring.

played computer games the entire day. had only 10 calls (i'm not complaining =P) but time passed painfully slow.

it was a wet wet day. i hate wet days because:

1) my soles kept slipping out of the heels that i decided that i'd nv make it to the bus-stop. after abt 5 steps out of the gate, I ran back home in the downpourto change to boots. had to change into my pants for a better match with the ankle boots

2) the skirts of my pants were drenched to the core and my pants kept giving way to the weight below. the consequence? a dropping pants.

3) my neatly combed hair was dishevelled. hence resulting in a mad-woman image.

4) the mrt carriage was crowded like ants in an anthill.

5) the carriage stank odourously due to clammy passengers.

6) some AUNTIE placed her bags of loots on the floor thus impeding the flow of passengers.

7) i was literally squashed between walls of pple that i cld barely see my arms because there wasn't any space to lift them up.

8) the rain dampened my mood for looking out for eye-candies.

9) there were hardly any on a rainy day. WHY must they dodge the crowd and catch the early train.

10) i arrived at 815am. Bleah. late. fortunately, the supervisor wasn't there yet...as usual. Even better, she was on medical leave. Hoho.

11) was freeeeeeeezing in the office the whole day. the result: MORE binging on pantry food. oh well.


Happy. no strings attached.
out of the rut.




uh...uh...i came across my cousin's blog. OK. my youngest's cousin. my gm's favourite grand-kid. Is 17 (erm i think?...when i last updated...hehe). OMG. that means...I AM DAMN OLD. oh shit.

Like the cutsy cutsy little stuffed doll-cousin is 17. darn. And just look at that blog man. she's what, a student council in tpjc. And she's blogging abt guys and stuff (very normal...yaaa yaaa yaaaa...) but com'mon, when we were playing tog...when i was erm...9? and she was erm...only 6?...who talked abt guys back then?

WE EXCHANGED STICKERS and BLEW BUBBLES. Oh shit again. That's how many dog years ago. pls don't remind me.


note to myself:
YOU.
SO OLD.
Shooooo.
Go Away :(


I'm sad. i need to down saaaaashimiiiii. haven't had that in a looong time. erm...1 mth? sigh.

today i went for a choc cake eating spree with mee mum at j8 after work (: because it was pouring so heavily that we didn't want to get drenched on the way home (purrrrfect excuse :P) Secret recipe cakes are gorrrrrgeous. had the chocolate-i-don't-know-what-name cake. yum.

Aiy...today was sheryl's last day. Am gonna miss her. Really enjoyed talking to her during working hrs.

Today, we basically slacked our day away. sheryl, cheng and i. We played bingo, creating the most words from super-long words, hang-man, tic-tac-toe, the 'crossing out' game and even folded hearts from papers (LOL, because cheng wanted to see how it was done).

we read 8-days, chatted, gossiped and bitched outrageously and abusively abt celebrities and notorious bloggers. I realised that sher and i had so much in common. from owning dogs to having a common affinity towards particular hunks and babes to our parents' occupation to reading x2's blogs.

debated abt what GALS want and what GUY (because cheng was the only one) wants. haha. oh man.

today was the first time i stood beside cheng. because although he sat ard me, i have never stood up beside him before. but i knew that he was damn tall. esp everytime when he stood up [and i get a serious case of a strained neck].

Anyhow, till we meet again, Adios sher.




And then there was jia, who left yest and dropped us an email apologizing abt how she spooked jane and i out the previous night when the 3 of us were having night shifts. she had a great mind for ghoul stories. Really. And spooked the hell out of me esp when I had to walk home (thankfully with my mum's company) at 1215am. man...

that same night we came across some really funny customer name like erm, puttituthi/ramasamy sth sth. OMG. 10 syallabus--even longer then arnie schwarnegger's. (repeats the 1st word again and again). we were laughing for a straight 15 min. the way jia said it over and over again just totally cracked me up. what a name really. we were act qte mean laughing at pple's names. but at 11pm, it was really entertaining (:

oh well. last day of work for me soon. 6am start tmr! Night babes and erm, hunks? =)

this BRIGHT-GREEN mng skirt has been sitting in my wardrobe since the day my sis bought for me 2 yrs ago :( If only it was some other UNbright colour...I wld wear it. anyone knows how to dye it another colour without destroying it?...-_-"

Before cutting: check out my glow-in-the-dark nails! 

After. 

Freaky.

Today I was at j8 on my way to work. I was busy smsing while on the ascending escalator and When I looked up, WTH! Stupefied.

This evidently obesed guy on the descending escalator on my right waved at me with the widest grin I'd ever seen. He was practically grinning from ear to ear. I cld see him flashing his whites. And his eyes were reduced to just slits under that dark spectacle frame.

How desperate.

ARGH. ANOTHER nightmare.

It was pretty apparent that he was waving at me. Because on my left it was a neon advertisement and I was the ONLY one on the ascending escalator. He was twice my size, a little short of moses lim, as if he'd been practising to be a sumo. (i am so mean, thankyou). So when he was going down, he waved ENTHUSIASTICALLY like some retard. Well, he CLD have been waving to the breadtalk floss-buns adverts (makes sense) but I doubt. He wldn't wave at the floss buns, would he?

I swear I DIDN'T KNOW HIM!!! So i ignored him completely. my eyes were wide enough for the pupils to fall out.

Realising that he was still looking at me even when I'd arrived at the escalator landing, the first words I muttered were, OH SHIT. Then I RAN off (as fast as I cld move in my high-heels) to the mrt station, not even daring to look back at the weirdo.

I told my sis abt it and she even joked that perhaps he was some pri sch friend who grew morbidly sideways, beyond recognition. HA. HA. Even so, I wld have recognised him.

Cld have been a mistaken identity on his part. But darn it, I haven't completely regained my composure from the traumatic incident the previous night.

And now, THIS.

Sorry, I'm not used to having strangers wave spontaneously at me.

If the chap yesterday didn't scar me bad enough, today sure did. *shudders* what's wrong with guys today.

Harassed.

I've been harassed by an indian caller.

today this insane man called. we spoke for 5min and 4 out of the 5 min, he was practically interogating me. 1st, he asked 1) if i was studying 2) what i was studying 3) where i was studying 4) what is my dream job 5) how long i was working there (because he said I knew the things well) Er ?!?!??!!!! 6) whether i liked the job 7) what time the different shifts were 8) if there were less pple during wkend 9) whether i wld like being a banker 10) if i was malay or chinese. 11) HE ASKED FOR MY HP NUMBER. Go And Die.

Then he said I sounded like a malay. DAMN i felt very insulted. It's the 2nd time i felt soooo super-duper insulted.

The 1st time was when some sec sch boy whispered to his friend that I was cute (HA.HA. Thank you.) BUT damn his friend who had to add "china". WTH. NO, I AM NOT FROM CHINA! Argh.

do I really sound like a malay ?! (2nd time already) ARGH. I am NOT a racist. Just that I am proud to be a SINGAPOREAN CHINESE. Understooded? Yes.

Back to the point.
When that annoying indian fella asked me what my dream job was, I said "Er...Researcher" (Just Kidding, Okay? He wldn't leave me alone!)

Anyway, then he commented "Hmm...but you sound very friendly, like you really like to be ard pple and talk to pple...(Com'mon, i hate people alright?) ........hmm so are you like that?"

"Er...(HELP) Yes?" (LOL...I was practically lying through my teeth) THEN...

Then he asked for my hp number. He said "Can I have your handphone number? Maybe we can be friends." I was like.... #*($&(*&(#*#$$ $)(*#)($&##( !!!!!???? "Er...It's not convenient to give you now."

THEN. He said "Ok nvm, I'll give you mine. Maybe we can be friends. My number is 9*******. My name is ***. I hope you'll call. Hope to hear from you again. If I don't hear from you again, wish you all the best for your studies! Thank you for your help. Gd Bye!..."

OMG. I swear I felt a shiver down my spine. I started removing my jacket. I felt so hot. Extremely spooked lor.

CHEE-KO-PEK!!!!!!!!

If you ever come across a lonely indian man called Jay, SCRAM!

w an ts

to watch
-click
-the breakup
-ghost game

to do
-drums
-aerobics
-fly kite
-sleep
-dye my hair

to buy
-sunglasses
-sunday dress
-a top
-more clothes...

8am...

caller: yah i received a blah blah blah.........
me: wld you like to accept it now?
caller: so many cards. (complaints, complaints and more complaints) What do you think? Shld I accept uh?
me: er...haha...Yes you shld. (I had a dying urge to say...NO! UNLESS you are stupid or retarded, Don't accept it, damn it!--but of course I cldn't and I didn't)
caller: hai...but *complain, complain, complain* What do you think uh??? It is worth it or not? me: (NO!!!!!!!!) yah, it's a good offer, take it up! (MY FOOT!)
caller: how uh, shld I take it up?...haha, you must be thinking, why got this crazy person in the morning...
me: hahaahaha
caller: but makes life more interesting yah? haha
me: haha yah
caller: OK LAH, I'll make life easier for you, I'll accept it.
me: [FINALLY] Ok thank you!!!
*asked all the necessary qns...*
me: Ok, thank you!!!!!!!
caller: Ok thankyou. YAH, Bye.

Then he hung up before I cld say anything else.

&*#^$*&#*!!!

wah lao, hurry up make up your mind lah.
Oh well.
haha.

Day off! I had a VERY interesting day today. Let's see. I slept, slept and slept even more. woke up at 1130am. slept for abt 12 hrs. Napped from 3-5pm. I wonder why I am so exhausted. And the rest of the time I was either eating, watching tv or eating AND watching tv. My day was so exciting =)

5pm...

me: I cldn't get these pple. I called and their maids said they weren't home.
cheng: are you sure those are the maids?
me: sounded like maids leh.
cheng: because I think most are office numbers...
me: I think some were house numbers. they sounded like maids leh.


Silence.

Then both of us burst out laughing. LOL.





I think I am beginning to spout rubbish again.

6pm...

blah blah blah...........
cheng: so you buy your lunch from the petrol station?
me: yah...
cheng: baos (buns) right?
me: yah. everywhere also have baos.
cheng: yah they trying to be like 7-11....*thinks* No...indian shops don't have.
me: indian shops no baos lah! only got roti prata.
cheng: yah lah, all the indian shops got roti prata.
me: No...not all. those indian mama-shops no roti prata leh...


The conversation was so DUH?!

We started laughing again.

i am obsessed with wilber. but y are his pics online so ugly? that day I saw him on the coverpage, i almost died of hyperventilation. So wanna rip him off that mag. ArGh. so cute. buay tahan.

actually I hate his songs because I don't enjoy raps. But man, he's damn cute. reminds me of j. hahaha oops. don't worry, this obsession will die off soon. when I see a fugly pic of him. Up till now, not yet. haha.

today the day passed painfully slowly. to the extent that I even dozed off abt 3 times at work =P Only 20 calls for the entire day. which was, actually a little better than the others. Avg I got was 50 calls a day during wkends...and my workplace was a ghost town on wkends. Or so pple claimed. Nothing to eat; nowhere to go. So i decided to meet up with Dre during lunch at bugis. Well at least there was a crowd there and we just settle for the foodcourt since I only had 1 hr, including the travel time. I took the wrong train (YEAH, WHAT'S NEW? =X) in the opposite direction, bringing me further away from where I was supposed to meet Dre. So yada yada yada. I was running helter-skelter in all directions.

So in the midst of dozing off, the calls came in and I'm like "GOOD AFTERNOON!...blah blah blah..." Kinda shocked and in a sleepy tone. But oh well. IT'S SUNDAY. Com'mon. Give me a break. Working on sundays suck for obvious reasons. First, there is no (not as many) callers. Second, they switch off the bloody aircons, lights and elevators to save electricity. Third, there is absolutely NOTHING open for eating except 2 fastfood outlets. BLAH. Fourth, it's WEEKEND. DUH.

AND. I've got pple calling me Janet, lynette, Gilian and of course, Eden. No comments.

Then my mum made me do some grocery on my way home and ViOlA~ I met my sister in the supermarket. COZ. Because I refused to buy dogs' food. For some reason. So my mum had to entrust my sis to get it. And coincidentally, she was THERE at the right place, at the right time. So. wahhhahaaR while I helped mum get our own necessities, my sis went to buy dog's food.

Been a long and sleepy day. Seriously, which idiot actually wakes up at 6am on sundays?...Enough said. I slept IN the train TO work. I slept AT work. I slept IN the train HOME. Hah!

Tonight, there was nothing on tv. every damn channel was the same stupid speech. Like can you at least have some common sense and not air the SAME show on SIX channels at exactly the SAME timeslots? pple need entertainment man. I wish I still had cable, lah. Then my sis turn the vcd on "Days of Noah" which even she herself fell asleep after 1/2 hr. How cld we even watch it?! it was in mandarin, for ure info. With chi and eng subtitles. STILL.

Drifting in and out of consciousness, somehow I keep 'seeing' melb. like actually feeling that I am there. Envisioning citylife church. THAT day was especially deeply embeded in my mind. That hot summer day, 1 week before my exams, THAT sat when I was meeting sar, sam and Isac for a game of badminton. I don't know why THAT vision seemed very clear today. It wasn't exactly a memorable day or anything. Just that I cld picture myself walking past melb central and myers to get to the tram stop and meet them in the sch sports complex. THAT day...

which idiot has to work on a sunday?

Me.

I think i am falling head over heels for panweibo. i had one glance at his pic on a magazine and i was practically STARING at him for the rest of the time. OMG...my heart just melted...

Today in the train, there was this AUNTY dressed in white MINISKIRT and a gaudy pink HALTER-NECK. and black ANKLE BOOTS with black socks. OMG. It was so so eye-catching, I kept noticing her subconsciously at the corner of my eye (It was so distracting!!!). Her arms were like...the size of my calves...One Big Rule: Unless you are in your late 30s/early 40s and still have a bod as hot as my viet tcher's aka a bamboo pole figure, Please don't litter the place with your gibberish dress-sense. Or you'll be sent for cwo. sg is a litter-free country.

Coindentally, i was wearing boots today too. and I started comparing our clothes. her mini-skirt vs my long black pants to cover my ankle boots, her striking pink halter vs my baby pink cardigen. Difference was, she was definitely revealing more meat than me. In fact, ALOT of meat. Like...Erm...Okay...I was wrapped like a bah zhang today, 3/4 sleeve, long pants and totally covered boots vs her open flabby arms, and OH YES, below her shin, HER LEGS WERE AS HAIRY AS MY HEAD. Seriously. Fashion sense gone way awry.

Ok, I am so mean. Lord, I have to stop criticizing pple.



today there was one stupid potato-head caller. The only bloody caller who wldn't let me put him on hold. I hate the policy abt how customers are always right. MY FOOT.

Stupid caller:
him: can you check with your colleague?
me: okay, Sir can I put you on hold please?
him: No, you are so rude. DON'T PUT ME ON HOLD. CALL ME BACK. MY NUMBER IS blah blah blah blah blah

then he dropped the call.

What a total oddball asshole. Really.

Then when I called him back to reaffirm it, he went : OK......bye...then mumbled AIYAAAH~!...

Like WTF? I cld have not called you back one you know. At least I don't hang up on you! ASSH*LE.

Haha.



On a lighter note, there were some really nice customers like one call i received yesterday...He was just asking on and on abt the promotion...

Caller 2:

him: What's your name?
me: ****

for while he heard Eden.

him: Oh, is it the Eden Garden?
me: haha, no...
him: How do you spell it?
me: ****
him: Oh, never hear before. that's a unique name.
me: haha
him: that's a nice name.
me: Thank you.

yada yada yada...
THEN

him: sorry, I have a call...

THEN HE PUT ME ON HOLD FOR 5 MIN. *me wait wait wait...* and I cld hear his muffled voice in the phone as he HAPPILY CHATTED away on his hp.
when he came back...

him: Sorry, I also have customers...haha
me: it's ok...

yada yada yada

me: ok, the T & C applies and it's available online.
him: can you tell me the T & C?
me: ok, actually you can check online.
him: since i am talking to you, i wld like to hear your voice.

* #^#($!!?^#(??$ *

me: can i put you on hold while i check that for you?
him: ok

*came back later*

him: Luckily you are back uh, i was getting angry with the hold. i don't like the sound of the machine.
me: sorry abt it. blah bLAh bLah

Later...

me: Ok, is there anything else I can help you with?
he said: Ok, Thank You so much for your help ! Can I buy you lunch ?
me: Haha, it's ok, Thank you.

Then his last question was...

him: Are you a Chinese or a Malay?
me: Chinese

Telephone Flirting. He spoke for 20 min. Put me on hold for 5min...haha...I still remember his name. It was a chinese guy, who's married lah. His said his wife blah blah blah...If i'm not wrong, I think he was in a cement' company. Hehe. I checked his details =P Haha, he was qte funny. But I think such customers really make life sweeter (:



Caller 3:

She kept talking to me and asking questions for like i don't know how long...maybe 10 mins and kept transferring the phone to her husband. typical woman. Ask this Ask that. EVERYTHING!!! BLAH. Then she asked whether the chain of restaurants for the voucher included any vegetarian restaurants. I was qte shocked because from her voice (Ok, call me biased), she didn't sound vegetarian!!! hahaahahaaR...I don't know how I derived that but my impression of her wld be a voluptuous 1) AUNTY or 2) TAI-TAI who either goes shopping for veggies in the market or shops at Marks and Spenc. Oh well. Voices are misleading.

THEN...

me: did you spend blah blah blah???...
her: wah...I just spend today in the mark&spenc, in the system already uh? So fast uh? *she was VERY impressed*
me: yes, it's all in the system.
her: Orh...then if lost the cc, ure can check also lah? Very good leh, very fast can check...

Typical VEGGIE AUNTY =P

Something I was wondering...WHY wld veggie aunties need creditcards?!?!?! so that they can buy vegetables in the market with their cards???!!!....haha


It's amazing how much stuff we can retrieve from just an IC number...Like almost everything abt that person.

You know, if there was one thing I cld say to every customer, it wld be...
quote of the day: Don't fall for such gimmicks. NOTHING is free is this world. pple are so hao-lian. It's just a credit card. Forget It. At the end of the day, beneath the prestige of owning a cc, you are just paying more.

-today my colleague said yest, he checked the details of a caller who had what, 900,000 sgd in his account? WTH!!!!!!!...He's a millionaire.......*gasp*


Yay. Day off tmr! And no more night shifts!...Wanna thank God for letting me catch the LAST train for the last 3 days...(wanna thank my mum for staying up and walking me home from the busstop at 1230am for the past me days!) If not, I wld be stranded at the workplace =) Sometimes I think I can feel God's presence...especially when I meet nice customers who are very understanding. Praise the Lord!

Today was a really hectic day. It seemed that everyday we are getting more and more calls. Like today, I didn't 'aux' aka 'temporarily put away the call' and I had 10 callers STRAIGHT. ARGH. Can you imagine repeating the same stuff over and over and over again for TEN TIMES without rest!!! ...Hehe yes...I was almost out of breath. And for each call, you have to BE NICE. Fake it or whatever. Of course, i was trying not to but you know it's qte hard. esp when you are so tired just repeating the same story a hundred times a day.

Actually, I hate talking. So for me to have to speak and speak, it's just damn tiring. sigh. So actually for the rest of the day, I am just an autistic kid.

Thank God, it's not a perm job, otherwise I think i will die facing some horrid pple. Today average, abt 40 calls; yesterday it was 30...That's ALOT. On the bright side, it makes the day pass faster. VERY FAST in fact. don't even have time to catch my breath/digest my food. Before I know it, it's Dinner-Time...then it's Time-to-knock off! =)

Sleeping in tmr!!! =)

seriously i don't think i am able to discuss it now. I am inapt in putting it into words, for some reason. thx for the regards tho.

I don't even feel like talking anymore. My day has been filled with less than 5 sentences; and the rest was maybe only left for me to talk to God, or even to myself.

I went for run a couple of hrs ago. Initially, it was just a random walk in the park when I suddenly just felt like running. Everyone knows that I hate running. If it was the only sport left on earth, i wld nv take it up. But today I really ran. So much so that it's the longest distance I had covered since sec 4 napha. So you can tell how much pent-up angst I had within me.

I wished that perhaps if i ran till my heart stopped, I wldn't have to face tmr, nor my pending woes. Or maybe, if I collapsed, I wldn't have to wake up again.

But at the end of the day, or rather, an hr of running + walking, I didn't feel that "runner's high" that I once wrote abt in an essay. Instead, I felt an almost immense sporadic stomachache, great lerthargy, a headache and a face as red as a monkey's bottom. And yes, I cried again. And when I was in the bathroom, I felt cold and there were goosebumps. My body is so screwed.

The ache, i suspect, was probably due to my crashing appetite that made everything inpalatable to me and hence the malnutrition and whatever shit that comes with it. Much to my sorrows, my heart was still working.

I've been having diarhoea for 3 days and I thought, if it was cholera then maybe i will dehydrate and shrivel and die. Yes. That's good.

My faith has been put to the trial many-a-times but I can tell you that I have been reading the bible. It's been swayed umpteenth times lately but I am still praying that God will lead me to The Light soon.

Where are you, Lord?

Is death the only way out?

I've been crying for 4 days straight.

I feel so vulnerable.

I've been inflicting self-pain

Because it just feels so bad

That I hardly feel the pain

Even when I am bleeding.

I broke a bowl the day before

And the bowl of uneaten cooked fish fell on the floor

The bowl shattered into a million pieces.

The crashing resounded in my head

And woke me up for a moment

But it didn't change a thing.

I had to wash the entire kitchen myself

Because the fishy smell reeked.

I wished I cld cut myself with those porcelain pieces.

I hadn't had a decent appetite in 4 days.

It just feels so, so, painful

It's gonna be a long, long week...

still feeling like shit.

Today I went to kbox with can, dre and fen. I waited 1/2 hr for them. was supposed to meet them at 1.30pm but NONE of them were there. I was pissed...for the sake of getting pissed. it wasn't intentional, just that I was feeling lousy and I had to stand there looking like a complete goddamn idiot until 2pm. but when I met them, all my anger just dispersed. I wasn't angry with them, just that I was (still am) bugged by unresolved situations :( I missed them, after not having seen them for 2 weeks after the MBC exam. Shall plan another havoc outing soon, within these 2 weeks.

Dre and fen, being the elders of us 4, kept saying that they were leading ME astray because I was the youngest and hadn't been to a ktv, a pool place and clubbing.

Anyway, I had fun today. Since each cld have 2 glasses of drinks tog with the singing, I had Rum mixed with sprite and then a sweet almond lemon drink which tasted like shit. Sadly, I didn't get drunk, just ended up getting hot flushes. i wanted a vodka but I hated the bitterness in alcohol, Life is bitter enough. dre had a shandy (which was good) & ginseng drink and fen and can had tequila+coke & red date drink and whisky+coke & that sucky sweet almond drink respectively. can thought the whisky was qte strong and so didn't finish it.

in the evening, i remembered that i just had durians (compliments from my uncle/neighbour) b4 i went out and THEN had alcohol at ktv. lethal combi if i recall correctly. Well, on 2nd thoughts, i had musings that maybe death can solve my issues...Yes, i am that sad...

We drank like nobody's business and sang from 2pm-7pm like tmr was the end of the world. When F.I.R's songs like Fly Away was on, the 4 of us were high and kept jumping on the seats. Alrighty, I STARTED THE JUMPING and PRANCING ON CHAIRS PART. It was a hyper song anyway. How cld ANYONE sit and sing that song? I can't sing for peanuts. Deirdre was a superb singer...She CAN SING. at least among the 4 of us--the most IN-TUNE. I was having difficulty because I hadn't listen to chinese songs for like...erm...since I was 13??? So yeah, I cld never catch the tune, except maybe for just 1 song, out of the erm...Many.

Pictures.

outside my window 

us again 

=) 

Pouring my heart out.

an impromtu Can 

Fen.Can. 

Can, me, Dre 

Can, me, Fen 

dre (: 

auntie fen (:

feeling high. F.I.R. song 

Let's party! 

t-a-gg-e-d

Here goes...this is super long. this better be good.

*-Introduction-*
What is your name?: goh
Have you named after anyone?: Hah, Yes.
What's your screen name?: e***
Would you name a child of yours after you?: No.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Eugene
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: my parents gave me my name. enough said.
Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people do w/ your name constantly?: all the time--tired of explaining. Why can't I just be called michelle, not that I like the name.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: no

*-Basics-*
Your gender: f
Straight/Gay/Bi: crooked
Birth Date: 1 mar
Your age: forever 18
Age you act: 24
Age you wish you were: 3
Your height: 162
Eye color: blk
Happy with it?: shall suffice
Hair color: black and a bit of brown
Happy with it?: can lah
Lefty/Righty/Ambidextrous: R
Your living arrangement: you mean there's an arrangement?
Your family: noble
Have any pets?: not mine
Whats your job?: study
Any Piercings?: ears
Obsessions?: washing/cleanliness
Addictions?: Pink
you speak another language?: alien language
Have a favorite quote?: a**hole...wait...that's not a quote
Do you have a webpage?: blog

*-Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it-*
Do you live in the moment?: frankly, no
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: not at all
Do you have any secrets?: lots
Do you hate yourself?: yes
Do you like your handwriting?: if i make an effort
Do you have any bad habits?: hellish moodswings, pissing pple off and getting pissed
What is the compliment you get from most people?: skinny? Which is absolutely not the case
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: reflections
What's your biggest fear?: my sis says i have commit-to-phobia/people
Can you sing?: no
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: yes
Are you a loner?: yes
What are your Number 1 priorities in life?: family. studies. god?
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: depends on my mood
Are you a daredevil?: sometimes when the urge arouses
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i am capable of destroying myself. very tempremental, emotional
Are you passive or aggressive?: passive
Do you have a journal?: yes
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: perfectionist. works both ways
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: patience
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: no
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: loving myself enough
Do you think life has been good so far?: yes, although i cld have cherished certain things before i lost them
what is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: don't know what you've got until it's gone
What do you like the most about your body?: my fingers
And least?: almost everything
Do you think you are good looking?: can be better. i am greedy.
Are you confident?: not in my wildest dreams
What is the fictional character you are most like?: some crabby old hag
Are you perceived wrongly?: yes

*-Do You...-*
Smoke?: never
Do drugs?: nah. ecstasy sounds like fun
Read the newspaper?: yes
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: may i shld
Talk to strangers who IM you?: no. piss off
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no. that's only for kids
Take walks in the rain?: mum forbids
Talk to people even though you hate them?: no
Drive?: no
Like to drive fast?: yes

*-Would or Have You Ever?-*
Liked your voice?: can be sweeter
Hurt yourself?: when i am angry
Been out of the country?: you mean you haven't?
Eaten something that made other people sick?: only myself
Been in love?: yes
Done drugs?: no
Gone skinny dipping?: bathtub
Had a medical emergency?: no
Had surgery?: no
Ran away from home?: no
Played strip poker?: no
Gotten beaten up?: no
Beaten someone up?: a really hard slap on the back
Been picked on?: yes
Been on stage?: choir
Slept outdoors?: OBS
Thought about suicide?: ALL THE TIME
Pulled an all nighter?: yes
If yes, what is your record?: 1 or 2 days
Gone one day without food?: no
Talked on the phone all night?: yes
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: i don't sleep on such occasions
Slept all day?: yes
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: piss off
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: what do you mean "thought"?!
Kissed the same sex?: yes
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: who hasn't?
Had a dream that came true?: yes. was a sweet one...
Broken the law?: yes
Met a famous person?: local tv artistes are not famous enough
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: yes
On purpose?: ants
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: no way
Stolen anything?: yes
Been on radio/tv?: yes
Been in a mosh-pit?: no
Had a nervous breakdown?: very often
Bungee jumped?: no
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes. nightmares

*-Beliefs-*
Believe in life on other planets?: don't know
Miracles?: yes
Astrology?: so-so
Magic?: no
God?: yes
Satan?: everywhere
Santa?: naive. pple posing
Ghosts?: if you believe, there is. if you don't there isn't
Luck?: yes. what's success without a streak of luck
Love at first sight?: no
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: nv thought of that
Witches?: satan
Easter bunny?: make-believe
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: no
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no. i'm pessimistic
Do you wish on stars?: yes

*-Deep Theological Questions-*
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: yes
Do you think God has a gender?: yes
Do you believe in organized religion?: no
Where do you think we go when we die?: heaven and hell

*-Friends-*
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
Who is your best friend?: my mum
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: mum
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: too many. my mum gives some of the best advice
Your favorite inside joke?: life is a joke
Thing you're picked on most about?: emotional
Who's your longest known friend?: shu
Newest?: sheryl
Shyest?: HL
Funniest?: FK
Sweetest?: shu/bro dan/bro zq
Closest?: all abt the same. no closest
Weirdest?: some a**hole who happens to be my sis's friend
Smartest?: a few
Ditziest?: myself
Friends you miss being close to the most?: cynthia and bro zq
Last person you talked to online?: haven't been online for a while
Who do you talk to most online?: no one in particular
Who are you on the phone with most?: don't like to talk on the phone unless i need to ask sth. am antisocial
Who do you trust most?: nobody. if not, mum
Who listens to your problems?: mum, sis, han...pple
Who do you fight most with?: sister
Who's the nicest?: showing favourtism isn't nice...there are a few nice pple in MBC...
Who's the most outgoing?: bros, dan and zq
Who's the best singer?: choir had lotsa great singers
Who's on your shit-list?: some sh*t
have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: yes
Who's your second family?: my friends
Do you always feel understood?: no. and I can't be bothered to explain myself.
Who's the loudest friend?: ching
Do you trust others easily?: no
Who's house were you last at?: can't rem...vaguely remember it to be Han's IH hostel (last year)
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: no comments
Do your friends know you?: partially. well enough to know that i like pink
Friend that lives farthest away: bro zq in NZ...yy, ks and I don't know where is cynthia...America also maybe

*-Love and all that-*
Do you consider love a mistake?: A big mistake
What do you find romantic?: saying I LOVE YOU (and MEANING it), red roses, fine wines, beaches
Turn-on?: patience, manners, sweet-tempered
Turn-off?: pple who don't know when to stop talking
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: don't scare me
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: former
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: maybe
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: to me, he's always the most handsome person...maybe that's why they say love is blind
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: no?
What is best about the opposite sex?: Tall. Protection
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: i hate MCPs
What's the last present someone gave you?: shu made me choc brownies
Are you in love?: no
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes. but i have yet to meet this hottie

*-Who was the last person.-*
That haunted you?: some b**ch
You wanted to kill?: hmm...Her
That you laughed at?: some jokers on virtues of harmony on ch8
That laughed at you?: i don't know
That turned you on?: some cute waiter at the club who passed me the menu
You went shopping with?: shopping for a dinner place? Shu
That broke your heart?: nobody
To disappoint you?: some person
To make you cry?: that b**ch
To brighten up your day?: mum
That you thought about?: not really thinking abt anyone right now
You saw a movie with?: dan
You talked to on the phone?: i think it was mum
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: didn't go online
You saw?: my sis peeked in
You lost?: i can't rememer

*-Right This Moment.-*
Are you going out?: no
Will it be with your significant other?: non-existent
Or some random person?: irrelevant
What are you wearing right now?: nightie
Body part you're touching right now: nth
What are you worried about right now?: certain issues...
What book are you reading?: bible Psalm
What's on your mousepad?: don't have a mouse pad. touch pad.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: worried, uneasy, headache, disturbed, sad
Are you bored?: plagued with probs
Are you tired?: yes. but am too disturbed to sleep. didn't have a good sleep last night either
Are you talking to anyone online?: no
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: neither
Are you listening to music?: yes. my life

feeling like shit now. don't ask why. piss off.

glad to meet up with bestest pal, shu. you rock my world gal.

thank Almightly God for the HD for Chem and Stats (:

i hope i can get HD for MBC too. not very hopeful though.

funnnnnnnn

Went cycling with my sisters in ECP today. I had great fun =) Despite the hideous crowd of pple clad in red and white, it was enjoyable. There were only at most less than 15 bikes left at the main bicycle kiosk but we managed to get pretty good ones...

We went to the jetty, which was a great place. pple fishing and stuff. My sis decided to stop there for a 5min break because her ass hurt. It was nice because it was extremely windy. Loved the wind......

And so...I (think) I was leading for most of the trail from the beg to way way past the sailing centre and at one pt of time, my 2nd sis even commented, "Is there no other speeds you can go, other than fast?"

ahhaa...Well it was nice embracing the sea breeze and veering down slopes (Yeah Man!) so I just paddled and paddled and paddled. But I have to admit that uphills are damn taxing and I was caught up in a couple of rather embarrassing situations, which my sisters just laughed their hearts out.

You know I was leading for like 70-80% of the time right, then when it came to the slope, I just started to lag. haha and I cld feel the lactic just pounding in my calves. And then my sisters started to overtake me and when they saw how worn out I was, they just argh, gloated.

Once, I swerved (did that alot) to dodge some moron and the leaves of a tree just brushed across my face. Thankfully, I didn't crash. Ho Ho...The bikes were so much more stable than the one my sis owned! =)

All in all, we all escaped unscathed. YaY. Except that my sis got some idiot rollerblade straight into her when she was returning her bike and as a result, my sis got some scratches near her right ankle. Interesting, The Very Same Exact Moment when the national flag flew past. So she missed the hoo-ha. LOL.

Oh yah, can i also add that...ECP is a great place to ogle at cute guySSS) =P haha...There, It's Out In the Open.

Then when we were returning our bikes, the sg flag was flown across ECP by the helicopter. It was really cool. Pple cheered unanimously and some even honked for the sake of honking. Haha. It feels damn good to be home on the nation's bday!!!

For the 5th time in my 20 years, I didn't watch the parade. This time was because we were on the roads. For 3 years, because I was in crapland and for the other 1 time...Hmm, it was because...I was performing as a freaking banner gal, carrying the CPF banner. It was qte interesting I guess. Man it was painstakingly tedious, but with the great friends I had, the bus rides were really fun though..............The 8-mth preparation started from sch. From mar onwards, we started rehearsing at the stadium every sunday from 12pm and 10pm under the blazing hot sun as the hired SBS buses ferried us from the old bt timah campus to kallang.............
Anyways...I was surprised that my sis spent her national day with us when seriously she'd usually have a schedule full of dates lined-up...

TokyoDrift. Yes. I haven't finished my previous story. I imagined that it wld be a blast to be driving at what, 197 kph? Then on 2nd thoughts, I recalled the time when my brother sped across the PIE at 11pm at 100 kph in his [stolen] camp honda, or was it 110 kph? Yup, and I think i was screaming my head off because, he didn't even have his hands on the wheel ??!!!!??!!!..... And on seeing that I was a little disconcerted, NO, HE DID NOT PUT HIS HANDS BACK ON THE WHEEL for your info. He actually did that more often to which I was really on the verge of screaming at him and tearing him up. haha. Oh wait, maybe I did =P I can't rem.

Today, my sis drove past this person who was caught speeding (most likely) on the highway by a policeman. Then when my sis drove past that lady, SHE WAS CRYING. It was my 1st time seeing someone cry for having been called to pull over at the side of a highway. Kudos man.

Hello Muffin! :)
So I reached home at 1am after having to jostle in town at erm...12am?...It's just ridiculous. Who wld have thought that suddenly we had so many patriotic citizens up at 12am? cityhallmrt stat was even scarier. Never have I seen such a large sea of crowd at an mrt stat!!! Basically, all you cld see was bobbing heads; you cldn't even see a single patch of white tile on the floor!

At some point in time, they even announced over the speaker: those who are not boarding the trains please leave the station!!! muahahaa...to which I was secretly smirking in response to the idiotic behaviours...

Boy, I just lurrrvvveeeee bus rides, save having a voluptuous lady sit next to me and rub elbows agst mine, while consistently turning back to converse in a foreign lanuage. Nevertheless, I was glad to get a seat for the entire 50min journey. The bus ride was yet another outlet for my mind to run wild...Yes. Dozing in and out of consciousness, beads of haphazard thoughts just run amok.

Like, why on earth are pple still up at 12am? Why is orc rd still packed to the core? Why is there still traffic jam in town? The 8pm traffic is still kicking in!

I hate it when I am the only person to alight at my stop. It feels lonely. I have to be the one to punch the red button. I have to be the only one whom the bus driver has to open the door for. and I have to be the one to walk by that lonely road.

I was out in RC. Ask me why and I can't answer you. Anyway, rafflescity changed rather adversely. The basement is unrecognisable and I have to admit that I got lost a wee bit more than a couple of times. Yeah, I am lousy. Oh well, women CAN'T read maps, for your info. Neither can they navigate. That's partly why i detest female drivers.

Ok, so I watched Tokyo Drift. Oh man. It was cool =) To start off with, I am not a car-fanatic but seriously, the cars were awesome and the babes galore were babe-li-cious. Those legs...OMG...Really. Those legs pple will die for. Who said girls can't watch babes? OMG. The women (except the lead) were hot, irony. I think my heart was pulsating to the vibe of the car engine (loved the orange hottie man)

oh well, had 2 mini baos and mua-chee when I got home because I was hungry. -_-" They were cold and rock-hard-straight from the fridge. but. Oh Brother! Beggars can't be choosers. It was ok I guess. Sleepy now. Oh when I was down the hill, my mum was standing outside the gate and it was kinda scary. I blinked a couple of times just to make sure that it didn't disappear. Haha. Yes, Yes. When you are sleepy, your mind just run wild you know...

Oh..had a nice walk ard the esplanade. The sea breeze and stuff set-up were calming to a certain extent. AND THEN. I saw a cutie. WhaHAHaR. The freaking policeman who walked past me with the reflective "security" word shining off his back is uber HOT. OMG, you shld have seen me drool. (Yes, the same one who turned ard when you asked him to clear the trash) hahaa...Seriously, he was sooooo cute. Actually, it ain't that bad dating a policeman. Hmm but that wld probably mean an end to all littering, I guess. Haha.

Sick :(

haN says:eh.
haN says:sick?
haN says:ohhhhh
haN says:how sick are you? very sick?
me says:sigh flu.
me says:block nose
me says:*sneeze sneeze*
me says: :P
haN says:ohhhh.. poor ****.
haN says:come up penang. penang fresh air can help you cure the sickness
haN says:hahaha
haN says: :p
me says:wah...u still tease me uh
me says:0_0
me says:eh...penang air and singapore air.
me says:whats the difference!!
me says: :p
haN says:hahaa.. peanng air nicer mah

!?!!??
haha

Hop, Hop, Hop. That was what the little frog did.
Feeling a little moody day. So I cried.
I was staring at the backyard and this little thing just jumped crossed. Sweet. And there were 2 of them. Maybe pap and mum. Even Sweeter.

ooo baby give me ecstasy.

Coz everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side

*Everytime we touch*cascada*



I recalled that lecture abt osmosis and how frogs drank water. Really cool way. Then it kinda traced back to my vietnamese tcher. The hot sexy lecturer. And her 'the king and the salt' story. Even more amusing. She wanted to prove her point that sodium/salt is important. Vietnamese Fairy Tales. Very interesting I tell you. Here goes:

Once upon a time, there was a king and his lover. The king asked "How much do you love me?" The lover said "I love you as much as salt." The king was angry and banished the lover. Then one day, the king was given food without salt. It was then that the king realised how important salt was. END OF STORY.

Very DUH. The kind in which you will roll your eyes. The entire class laughed. if you're not laughing, I suggest you see a doc.



*Let You Go by ashley parker angel
*Stars Are Blind by paris hilton
*Hips Don't Lie by Shakira
nice songs!! (:

ooo lala. I like this. haha 

Aiy my aircon's so screwed. I am hot. As in literally. Haha.

Sigh, forewent another cycling trip. Binged more. Couch-potatoed even more. LOL.

Ooo. I wanna learn drums. Been planning that for a loooong time. Make that a week. haha. But it's an expensive hobby =( First you gotta possess drums. If only I had the means to take that up. Pole-dancing sounds fun too. But you need a pole. ARGH. Who Can Be My Pole?

Hmm actually i wld prefer studying then working. I think I psychotic. But you know, I actually enjoyed studying for the past 1 week! =P Seemed like that particular module had nicey pple. In fact, maybe due to the hectic timetable, meeting up with these pple for lectures was kinda fun because everyone was just busy with the same stuff. So there was a level of same frequency i guess. It was a different thing altogether for the last 2 mods. hopefully i get to meet more niceties in the following mods!...

Shld be hitting town tmr. I think. I need a breather!! yay!=)

liberation

Hello! been a while, hey? =)

My MBC is finally over! ... NOTE: my module is over lah :) haha So gone are the reports and worksheets too! cheerios~ I need to replenish my income for more shopping sprees.

Anywayz, although the past week was gruelling in the sense that it was mugging, mugging and more mugging, I managed to join in my dad's birthday celebration on sunday! Yippee! Sis brought us to patronise tatsu sushi at the club. The food was great:) the bill was even better. $ 150 =X Thankfully, i wasn't the one paying. WahHAHaR. Happy Belated Birthday Dad! =)

Despite the occasional suaning and witty humour that my sis had come to develop over the years, I still love my family=)



After sleeping at 5am and twice at 6am for the past 1 week, my bio clock is officially screwed for the 1st time. Big time. No matter how exhausted I was (like last night) i can never sleep earlier than 5am =( ARGH. I am basically zombified. Last night, I went to bed at 1am, only to fall asleep at 5am. And for the 4 hrs, let's see, for the 1st hr, i lay in bed tossing and turning, in the next hr, i switched on the comp. And the 3rd hr, I turned on the table lamp and boy, i can't remember what i did. Then for the last hr, I just went back to lying in bed with random trains of thoughts abt what i shall be doing tomorrow, or rather, when i wake up. Then i finally slept. How painstaking. Shall deprive myself of sleep for the next couple of days and keep my fingers crossed that i can revert to my early, er no, old sleeping habits. Blah.

Off days are nice :)

C for Can, D for Dre, E for En and F for Fen
oh and I realised sth very interesting, that Can, Fen and I have Hello Kitty handphone accessories. Talk abt coincidence. haha.
So last night after the 3 hr 10 min paper, we were all plain brain-dead. Went over to the 24hr macs where we had ice tea (SHLDN'T HAVE) and pepper drummies and I had good old fillet ole fish, and nua-ed for abt an hr and planning for the next ulu outing. Obviously, I was just stoning there after I've got all my brain juices squeezed dry. Half the time, I wasn't even sure what the plan was. Which ktv, where to go, where to meet, what time, how to get there and the rates. haha. So er, Someone pls fill me in?

And zen is an energizer bunny man. Like me, she's developed odd sleeping habits like sleeping at 7am and waking up at 12pm or 3pm. But the difference being, hers is partly due to the assignment and mainly due to watching taiwanese, jap and korean vcds. haha. Back to the point, she went for drinks at clark quay last night. And when she asked me, I was contemplating hhahaaR...but nah, I was super tired. So much for being a 20 year old. I can hear my bones creaking.

Aiy, sleepy ler. how uh? I don't feel like sleeping at 5PM =( but then at 1am, i just can't get a wink. Sigh.

Let's see what have i been doing today...eh...enjoying my afternoon peace=) I had brunch, watched tv, put on a few clothes and just paraded ard the house. erm, did my pedicure...(oh So Vain...hehe)

I have noticed a strange phenomenon. At the sch busstop, there are always stupid pple who were originally walking behind me. Then because I am always looking straight ahead and anticpating the arrival of the bus, I never noticed these perverted pple. And i realised that some of them just walk to your front and just after they walked past you, they turn around and look at your face. How idiotic is that! It doesn't only happen to myself, but everyone (in fact every female counterpart) at that busstop. So basically these ah peks will just walk and turn and walk and turn and look at every girl. and it has happened abt thrice so far. I'd say, Crappy Chee Ko Peks. Or is it chee ko pek.



mum, dad, pls don't send me back, I promise to be a good girl.
I love being home with my singaporean friends and singaporean backgrd.
Blah. Happy early Birthday Sg!

The worst thing is i have unfinished business in that fcuked up place. Blardy Damn It.