So I am back here in crapland. I feel so sian. I was surprised that I didn't cry at the airport. Thought I was going to. I did tear a little when I was on te plane though. They confiscated 3 packets of my herbs for boiling. Disgusting pple. It was cold and windy last night. Today morning was cold but by noon, it was terrible. Felt like I was being bbq-ed raw. Some students are coming back tmr. So the physio blding seems a little empty right now. Union hse empty. This time only the meds and physios are back early I think. The dents are not even here! How horrible. Had my first lecture in 4 mths. On the heart. Had my first CRS PBL in the morning. I prefer not to comment on the tutor lest the situation shld change. eg. from a non-obvious racist to an obvious one. I feel like I am living dead. No lifer. Crap place. It's only the first day and I felt bad already. 9 mths in the making. That's 282 more days =( So how errands to run. Went to the 'wind tunnel' to get some stuff. Been running ard the bank in the uni for abt 3 times now. 1st time went to look for vick but cldn't get my things done. 2nd time it was lunch time and the queue was unamusingly long...

Waiting my 1st 2nd year prac session to begin. I hope we won't have to strip today. I feel so deprived of my own privacy. I cldn't help but msg a close friend today and I was glad that she replied. It did make me feel a teeny-weeny better=) Thx gal. And then the 2nd sms came 15 mins later. I realised that it was due to the horrible retarded smsing service because the time was there. I was a little disappointed but still appeased that my msg was replied=p

Describe my day? I really don't know what to say. Just a mood filled with melancholy and stuff. Ironically, it is v day. I don't know if I shld be thankful or not that they don't celebrate it here. Whatever. Crappy weather, crappy pple, crappy day. Somehow I think I am making my own day unpleasant because even if it isn't at all, I'll still feel that it is sucky. My heart is crying but my eyes are not. The complexity of studying and stay aboard disturbs me so much that I even wonder how did I even survive 1 yr?...

The day ends at 5.15pm for me today. Had 4 hrs of sleep the day before and 5 hrs today. Despite the weariness, the depressing situation bugs me more than anything else. I been hanging my head low today for I miss seeing pure Chinese on the streets. No doubt there were on my way to school but the ratio is minimal. Furthermore, I guess I can't say that they are totally pure. Pure-bred. Not someone who lived in aust for more than half their lives.

I miss orc rd, miss seeing the familiar faces of my dear friends. I think I am terribly home-sick.