my heart skipped a beat. i thought it was him.

it feels excruciatingly pain.

I know i will cry IF i ever saw him again.

that was probably the biggest regret in my life but i had to do it.

it was painful seeing him everyday.

ultimately i know where my heart was facing.

it's there; so near yet so far.

and in between, a big 'impossible' separates us.

maybe i am not meant for big things in life.

I am very very confused with my life.

where's my direction?

how i wish i can run away from life...