now i know why. and it feels so weird. so that's the reason. letting go is never easy. esp when you were left without a reason. i admit it does feel a little sour to be smacked straight in the face with a blow. not matter how aloof i may sound or manifest, i am human afterall and i can feel it. doesn't feel good but who am i to change the fact? the truth is brought to light. never thought it wld turn out this way. ouch.